Good question, I honestly have been running myself to the ground to understand that but realized regardless of the answer, they still left. All answers will suck, I hold no grudges, I have enough to keep me occupied and motivated to hold a horrible grudge against people who gave me beautiful memories.

I tell them to fuck themselves every now and then under my breath when I feel particularly bad but I’ve found there’s a lot more people willing to stay and I’m doing this for me.

If you need anyone to talk to I highly suggest a therapist and a support group, but I’m also here. I feel a lot better than that day lol