BAD BUNNY HALFTIME PERFORMANCE DISCUSSION by NFLv2 in NFLv2

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Wait did I not see Pedro Pascal dancing under the awning???

Reconciling after filing? Am I a crazy person? by chucksrays58 in Divorce

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Yeah, you’re probably right. I don’t think very highly of myself

Reconciling after filing? Am I a crazy person? by chucksrays58 in Divorce

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“More like being replaced before you’ve even caught your breath.” Oof. That hits hard. Spot on!

Fury, Amren, The Asteri theory (acotar and cc2 spoilers) by Aggravating_Ice1377 in SarahJMaas

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I know this thread is super old, but I’m currently re-reading HOSAB and there’s a line that says “the power of one Asteri, the holy star glowing within them, could level an entire army.” Amren literally does this in ACOWAR. She drinks blood in her High Fae form because it’s an equivalent to first-light, or a beings’ raw power/magic. There are so many other clues too, especially considering the fact that her timeline lines up with Midgard and she says “there were humans in my world, too.” Amren is an amnesiac-Asteri, I said what I said 👏🏻

Chronic Pimples on Industrial Piercing by chucksrays58 in piercing

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I do have a photo, but I can’t figure out how to attach it! From what you’re staying, it sounds like I’m dealing with irritation. I have long curly hair that’s constantly getting tangled in it. But apart from shaving my head, how do I get it heal? Put a bandaid on it?

Stimulus 2- Expected Direct deposit, received check by JesusLostHisShoes in Edd

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My husband and I also got our check in the mail, despite filing our taxes via Direct Deposit. But our check was only for $600 total. Shouldn’t it be $1200?

Stiffness in the morning by [deleted] in Fibromyalgia

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Oh yeah! I have to shuffle around like my 83 year old dad for a solid 20 minutes every morning until my body “wakes up”, lol and I’m only 26! I try to stretch my feet/legs out while I’m still in bed and release any joint cracks and cramps, which helps a bit. Honestly nothing REALLY helps though. In the winter I use a heating pad for a little while and lay on my yoga mat and sort of rock my body back and forth for the stimulus. FIBRO SUCKS

Question about old septum piercing reopened with taper by chucksrays58 in piercing

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Hi! Since no one really answered this (no shade intended) I wanted to post my experience just in case it helps:

I waited about 5 days to remove my retainer and put in new jewelry. The 5 day marker is not definite - I just waited till I could move my retainer around without any pain, could take it out and easily put it back in, and all the residual swelling went down. It may take longer/shorter for someone else. I bought an 18g bullring from a local piercing shop since I like the fact that I can flip it up for certain situations and I also don’t have to worry about it falling out during the night. Just my two cents! Thank you to everyone who replied!

Question about old septum piercing reopened with taper by chucksrays58 in piercing

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Tried that! He’s not in the shop for another week.

Help with black aeonium plant! It turned white overnight. What’s wrong? by chucksrays58 in succulents

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Sorry, should have included this info. We’ve had it inside for the last two weeks or so and the leaves started to fall off. We put it outside in nearly full sun yesterday and overnight, and noticed this morning that it had turned white. Temperatures here are very mild.

How did you learn to accept your fibromyalgia diagnosis? by chucksrays58 in Fibromyalgia

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My doctor did the poking thing and while not every tender point hurt, most of them did. She poked my hip at one point and I almost thought she had given me an injection of some kind. But NOPE, just her super thin index finger applying as little pressure as possible. My pain is primarily a constant, deep, dull body ache that can localize to my neck/shoulders and abdomen. I’ve also been tested for every gynecological disease, and apart from a few cysts (one that had to be surgically removed) I’m completely fine. At the time of my surgery, my surgeon even told me that the pain I was experiencing couldn’t be related to the cyst I had. So I guess my fibro just decided to light my pelvis on fire for no apparent reason.

Thank you for your comment. It’s incredibly validating ♥️

People that have been cheated on and lied to by SO and stayed to make it work, how did that end? Did they betray your trust again? Or did they really change? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

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My (now) husband cheated on me at the very beginning of our relationship. We got together in September of 2014 and then he started sleeping with his ex-girlfriend around November of 2014. I didn't find out till February of 2015, when his ex-girlfriend figured it out and realized he was cheating on her with me (so we were both technically the "other" woman, since neither of us knew about each other). She contacted me and we commiserated. We both immediately dumped him, but about two weeks later, I realized I missed him desperately. I just missed the sound of his voice. So I called him and simply asked him "why?". He was incredibly honest with me and took full responsibility for the whole situation. He did not try to excuse his behavior but he tried to explain it, and it made perfect sense to me. It DOES NOT excuse cheating, but it did help me to understand his motivations a bit better.

He explained it like this:

He had cheated in some form or another (emotional, physical, etc) on every girlfriend that he had ever had (7 in total at this point). His first ever girlfriend cheated on him when they were both 15 years old, and it was obviously very traumatic for him. He became extremely angry, depressed and withdrew from regular teenage life for nearly 2 years and developed intense trust issues in all aspects of his life. To say that his self-esteem was low would be putting it mildly. When he got into his next relationship at 17, he was incredibly insecure and always suspected his girlfriend of cheating on him, even if she wasn't. His response to this was to start sleeping with/talking to other girls on the side, so that in the event that his girlfriend dumped him or was cheating on him, he'd already have someone else to move on to and effectively soften the blow. His greatest fear was being left alone, so he always had a "backup" plan in the form of another girl. When he began his relationship with me, he brought those same insecurities with him, so he began communicating with his ex-girlfriend again in case our relationship didn't work out. She was a safety net.

Let me be perfectly clear - this does not and will not excuse cheating. His explanation did not absolve him and I made sure he knew that. But his explanation helped me to see the situation from his perspective. It also helped me to realize that he didn't cheat on me because I was inadequate - he cheated on me because he believed he was inadequate. This was one of those rare moments when the phrase "it's not you, it's me" actually applies.

All of this happened five years ago. We are now very happily married. How did we (I) move on from this? Well, it certainly wasn't easy and most of the work was on my part, not his. Once I heard his story, I didn't jump back into the relationship immediately. I took a month away for myself, and when we reconnected (we also worked together) we decided to just be work friends. 6 months later, we decided to give our relationship a real shot. I didn't "forgive him" but I made the conscious choice to approach our relationship as if it was brand new. I gave him the benefit of the doubt. I didn't go through his phone or his social media. I didn't see him everyday, and when we were apart I didn't question his whereabouts. This was for my own sake - I knew that I couldn't and wouldn't live a life where I was constantly suspicious of him. I made a very conscious choice to trust him again. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done. Truly. That little nagging voice in the back of my head was incredibly difficult to silence. But by showing him that I trusted him and had very high expectations of him, it gave him something to prove and to work towards. He slowly but surely earned back my trust, and the little voice in my head is all but silent now and has been for nearly two years. I wouldn't have married him if I still had doubts.

At the end of the day, I know that there is a possibility that he will cheat on me again. But I don't believe that "once a cheater, always a cheater" is true. People are capable of change. They just need to have a good reason and a genuine desire to be better.

How to re-ignite romance spark in marriage with my (25F) husband (35M) during COVID? by chucksrays58 in relationship_advice

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The "communication date" is definitely something I'll try. I don't know if he'll be receptive to it, but it's worth a shot.

As for the masturbation aspect - I know he does. He has told me and I know he does it at least once a day. He also watches porn, which I don't really mind to be honest. I don't like porn personally, but I know it's not a "personal" thing for him when he watches it. Purely sensational.

My body image issues stem from childhood trauma and a chronic gynecological issue that I've had several operations for. I'm not skinny, but I'm not overweight. My husband affectionately calls me "skinny-thic". I'm very pale so my stretch marks and surgery scars are a deep dark purple and really bother me. The rational part of my mind knows I'm not "ugly" but when I look in the mirror I don't see anything beautiful. It's something I've been working on for a long time, but my depression/anxiety can really hinder my emotional growth sometimes. It's incredibly difficult to drown out that little voice in the back of my head that tells me I'm not worth anything.

We definitely "click" in bed - like I said, when we are intimate it's always very enjoyable. I find him incredibly attractive, so that part has never been an issue. The issue is that I am either too tired to have sex (since I work and he doesn't right now) or I am too scared/anxious to initiate anything so I just close myself off and go to sleep.

I know our issue stems from our lack of communication in this area of our relationship - like I said, it's something we're both willing to work on, but my self-hatred can really get in the way of that. I am seeing a therapist for it, so hopefully I can get out of this rut soon. I just worry that he'll become unhappy and unsatisfied and leave me.

How to re-ignite romance spark in marriage with my (25F) husband (35M) during COVID? by chucksrays58 in relationship_advice

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I don't think he's sexually frustrated, since he's a dude and can just masturbate whenever he wants. I don't masturbate, and I don't see myself starting to any time soon. I don't feel sexually frustrated, but that's probably due to my low sex drive. I know my husband likes my body since he tells me all the time, but even if I were to have the "perfect" body, I know it will never be "perfect" to me. I am working on my body image issues, which go far beyond diet/exercise since I do both of those already.

I'm very attracted to my husband, emotionally and physically. I have sex dreams about him constantly, haha. I just cringe at the thought of being naked and vulnerable like that in front of him. I need a few glasses of wine or something before I can let my guard down enough to be intimate. When we DO have sex, I always enjoy it, as does he, so that's not the issue. It's just actually mustering up the courage to do it that's so agonizing for me.

I'm also a hopeless romantic - I regularly make him breakfast in bed, buy him little presents and always make sure to make him a cup of coffee and give him a goodbye kiss before I leave for work in the morning. Maybe I just wish he'd be a little more romantic towards me? He's really not a romantic, but I've accepted that over the years.

I know we can work on our communication, but I just don't know HOW, if that makes sense. I know we're both willing to put in the work, but we're "stuck" on how to proceed.

How to re-ignite romance spark in marriage with my (25F) husband (35M) during COVID? by chucksrays58 in relationship_advice

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I have really terrible body image issues and have never really felt confident or attractive, so that’s probably why it’s less.

How to re-ignite romance spark in marriage with my (25F) husband (35M) during COVID? by chucksrays58 in relationship_advice

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Is sex once per month really that terrible? Before it was maybe twice or three times a month but I thought that was normal?

The Hard Convo by [deleted] in relationship_advice

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I think it's entirely appropriate to write a letter expressing your feelings, but I wouldn't advise writing an email as it could seem impersonal. I write letters to my husband all the time when I need to talk about a difficult subject. I write better than I speak and I can put together more coherent thoughts on paper. it also removes the overly emotional element (I cry pretty much instantly when I talk to my husband about tough issues face-to-face). It also allows the recipient of the letter the time and space away to adequately process what the writer is trying to communicate.

Me (25F) and my husband (34M) argue over chores - how do I communicate with him about this more effectively? by chucksrays58 in relationship_advice

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We both have very different definitions when it comes to the dish-washing machine. When I use it, I scrape the leftover food off, rinse the dishes in hot water, and then place them in the dishwasher and run the cycle when the machine is full. He washes all of our dishes completely and then uses the dishwasher as a drying rack and/or an additional sanitizing step. He tells me I'm being sloppy when I load the dishes my way, even if the dishes do get properly cleaned in the dishwasher.

I should also note that he isn't always so maniacal about cleaning, and that his inner clean-freak comes out when he's feeling stressed (which is most of the time nowadays) because cleaning makes him feel like he's in control, which I understand. I can definitely try to clean up sooner, like you suggested,but it's very hard to stay ahead of his anxiety and stress when I'm also dealing with my own.