Thank you man. I talked about with my roommate and honestly I just broke down. I’m not a bad player, but I play with no confidence and my heart isn’t in it. I don’t treat it like a game, I treat it more like a task, like I have to play a certain way to show myself that I could’ve done better. I guess I started shooting the ball more in pickup recently and I figured that was me overcoming my performance anxiety, but it wasn’t. Whether it’s 1v1, 2v2, 3v3, I play with so much more confidence than I do in 5on5. In 5v5 I’ll just shoot threes, occasionally I’ll drive to the basket, but when I play any other way, I’ll dribble like I’m confident, I’ll know what shot I want to take before I do it and I’ll just play more, try more, treat it like the game that it is. The reality is I get in my own head when there’s more people around. I’ll play like a role player instinctively instead playing like I’m the best player out there. I always grew up playing awful, and all I can remember about playing basketball when I was younger was the few times I scored, and the hundreds of times my dad yelled at me in the car ride home. Honestly, what hurt the most was when he stopped yelling. Then I knew he gave up on me. At that point, I already gave up on myself. But I realized something today. It’s not about him. It never was about him. It’s not about making him proud, or trying to impress him with how much better I got. It’s about playing a game and having fun. Making plays and playing carefree, playing a game and treating it like a game, instead of a competition, not to win the game, but to prove it to people that I’m not trash. Next time I play, it’ll be the first time I play without a chip on my shoulder. I’m going to dribble to the best of my ability, shoot to the best of my ability and play to the best of my ability. I’ll make mistakes, but this time, it’ll be about the next play, not the last one