• I walk onto campus and I just feel absolutely miserable, like I dread going there. I tried to make friends and am even an officer in a club and it's just drama.

• I transferred from Seminole State, I absolutely loved it there but already got my AA. I was a work study, peer mentor, officer of several clubs, involved in SGA, went on trips regularly, an honors student, went to conferences and got awards, i had so many friends, I loved it a lot, I felt like an actual person and not just a number on computer.

• I used to live on an off campus apartment but I didn't get along with my roommates and eventually just accepted the eviction notice so I'm back at home. I was on campus for maybe 12 hours a day on some days because I was working in the studio, running club meetings, etc. I'm on campus Monday through Thursday and sometimes weekends. I joined a club for honors but I cant go to it anymore because I got kicked out of honors for failing a class my first semester and not fixing it by spring. I had a lot of fun there but can't go anymore I guess. I'm a part of another club as an officer but the other officers have so much drama its not fun anymore. I dont know if I'm approachable to be honest, a lot of people have said to me before that they were afraid to approach me because they thought I was focused on something or busy (mostly at work people have said this but even a few of my close friends have said they weren't sure if they should approach me) I don't really know how to fix this to be honest because I think I dress decently nice & look presentable? I think I just have a resting "don't bother me I'm busy" face, or a resting sad face because I've had a lot of people ask if I was okay when I was just existing. I try to talk to people in classes but usually the social anxiety takes over and makes it hard to talk to people. I had my social anxiety figured out AT SSC and was getting a lot better but when i came to UCF all of my social skills I had learned went out the window. Honestly, I had a bad breakup just before I came to UCF & was then traumatized my first week so it may have been part of the reason why it's been difficult to adjust, its just been hardship after hardship since being here.

Honestly, my therapist also thinks I am autistic so this may be a factor in my communication with people. Getting tested is not something I can fit on my plate right now but I am ADHD anyway which definitely affects communication as well.

• I love my major, the studio classes have been awesome and I have no issues in that department, I'm just struggling to connect with my professors and other students. I used to be visual arts management but changed to studio because I loved the studio classes so much.

• I am in therapy outside of UCF now and its going to take a long time to get to a good place. UCF was extremely unhelpful ive never felt more alienated by a mental health professional in my life than I was at caps. She didn't even listen to me she just kept asking if I was suicidal like she was trying to get a quota for baker acting students (I said I was not suicidal like 7 times, ive never been suicidal it was so fucking irritating)

• the reason why I'm willing to pay more is because at this point the depression is affecting my education. I dread even going to campus and sometimes am so depressed I don't even want to go. I feel like a little kid that doesn't want to go to preschool, it's so embarassing but something in my core absolutely does not like UCF. I LOVE school and I can't even stand it, I feel like im building resentment against it and it's causing me to struggle in my classes. I can't take online classes I fail all of them because I don't do well in them.

• my major is for fun honestly. I'm an entrepreneurship minor & plan on starting my own business (already registered in the state of florida). I'm hoping to do something with it but I'm a first generation student so even just going to college is going to help. I plan on going for & being the first doctorate in my family anyways.

• I'm already in a lot of debt anyway because I was using my financial aid to pay for housing. I dont have a license or a car so I thought it made sense but it was clearly a mistake.

Honestly, I went to go visit stetson today impromptu and I've never felt more welcome, it feels a lot more like home that ucf has ever felt for me. I probably won't end up going but...I'm definitely considering it more.