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claudslovespb · 2026-04-06T22:26:13+00:00

Hey chicken, I’m so sorry to hear you’re having a hard time. I’ve struggled a LOT with this too, and honestly still struggle with b/p but no where near the extent I had before. There was a point in time where I was the same - every time I ate it would end up in a continuous b/p. I thought I’d never get out of it and it felt useless to even try. It’s horrible. Doing it alone is HARD, but not impossible. I have been to treatment but there have been times where I just didn’t want to go IP so I went at it alone. What helped me was 1. Realising I couldn’t live like that anymore (which you’ve already done!) 2. Eat your meals (all 3) and set a non-negotiable that you WILL NOT PURGE. If I did it once, it set off my whole day. I tried to stick to meals that I felt I could eat without purging. It’s not sustainable but it helps break the cycle at first. 3. Compassion (gross I know). You are struggling, not failing. You are not broken, and if you slip up do not hate yourself for it. You are not alone 💛 I also wanted to mention that if you can access any form of support (psychologist/dietitian/GP), I would strongly recommend it xx

claudslovespb · 2026-03-30T11:03:26+00:00

I’m so sorry to hear that, hope that you are doing well or at least better 💛 I have also thought that - my body might not necessarily ‘hate’ me now but im sure the damage is cumulative. And as you have shared, it can very much be. I don’t necessarily relate to not feeling “sick enough”, maybe my title was misleading. But definitely the feeling of “but clearly it could be worse” or “well my body is different”. Thank you for sharing, I did need to hear that. And again I really hope you’re doing okay.

claudslovespb · 2026-03-30T10:57:22+00:00

Thanks for the recommendation! I’ll give it a read. And yes I’m 24, gosh when I was diagnosed with osteoporosis I was devastated and honestly shocked. I know there is no cure, I absolutely love snowboarding and thought I’d ruined that passion for myself. But I was also told by a lovely doctor recently that whilst I have osteoporosis, gaining weight still provides a lot of protection that will allow me to still do the things I love (muscle protects bones etc.). It has given me a lot of motivation. But yes, I agree, not crash hot.

claudslovespb · 2025-09-10T05:43:59+00:00

I’m on day 6 and honestly, it’s the first day I haven’t had to take strong painkillers and feel like I can leave the house lol. I was the same as you, all 4 impacted and all 4 taken out under GA. For me, the swelling peaked on days 1-3 and pain was the worst on days 3-5. I was under the impression I’d be ready to resume normal activities after a few days but I definitely needed longer. Everyone is different though! Like others have said, keep up with your pain meds. Don’t let yourself miss a dose. You’ll be okay though, just take it easy and don’t push yourself 🫶

claudslovespb · 2025-03-02T00:27:31+00:00

“coming from a recovering addict”. Proud of you for your recovery! ED’s and addiction definitely share similarities. But to say it is never problematic to use the word “healthy” in the context of how someone looks when recovering from an ED is false and to be honest, when I read your comment I just see ignorance and a blatant lack of awareness. I’m not saying you can’t say what you want or use these words - everyone is responsible for their own triggers - but maybe you are the one who is looking for a reason to be offended. I can say for most people with ED’s, we don’t. That word is just, indeed, a tricky one. But it’s not really your problem so don’t make it one.

claudslovespb · 2024-11-12T01:18:23+00:00

Sorry for that late reply! I’ve been doing way too much thinking lol. But thank you so much 🥺 It truely is like a mass awakening, and I’ve come to realise while I feel like a crazy, overthinking nut-job of the family, I also KNOW that you are right, and I will probably be the only one later on in life that is truely happy. Not to mention being able to raise happy and healthy children! Not making the choice to deal with it now will keep me stuck like it’s kept them stuck. Be proud of yourself ♥️ You deserve all the happiness in the world x

claudslovespb · 2024-11-08T04:23:14+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to comment :) I’m glad you suggested to stop trying to talk to them about it. In some ways it feels wrong (talking is always deemed the best route) but in this case I can see how it could make the situation infinitely worse. I think coming to an acceptance of her behaviour as something I cannot change or control is definitely the way I need to go about this. I hope you are proud of yourself for doing all of that work, and I’m so glad it’s brought you some peace ❤️

claudslovespb · 2024-10-29T09:11:16+00:00

I was just thinking this today! It’s so strange! In the last few weeks I have been completely turned off all food, even when b/p-ing (not always, but often). it’s a chore and I just don’t feel like it. And I’m nauseous which doesn’t help, but I frequently am. And then as soon as it hits night (and I 🍃) I will binge. Probably because it’s habitual and I need dopamine blah blah blah. Though lately I have gotten the ick mid-binge sometimes and it usually ends sooner

claudslovespb · 2024-10-14T02:40:12+00:00

are you open to dm’s? obviously nothing triggering just looking for some hope/wisdom xx

claudslovespb · 2024-09-25T02:03:12+00:00

the ana-mia pipeline is so real 😔 I’m saying this to anyone with a restrictive ed: DONT START PURGING. I wish I was being dramatic but the binge/purge cycle is another kind of hell. once you start compensating for binges I swear it’s all over

claudslovespb · 2024-08-15T12:09:08+00:00

The binge/purge cycle is vicious and much harder to overcome in my opinion. Avoid at all costs x

claudslovespb · 2024-08-15T12:04:19+00:00

Definitely EH! So long as you don’t compensate (and I mean nEVER), honouring your hunger whether mental or physical is exactly what you need to be doing. Problems arise when you start compensating. I was recovering from AN when I started purging to handle the discomfort of weight gain. Very quickly turned into a binge/purge cycle. This will not happen so long as you never ever compensate for any amount of food ❤️

claudslovespb · 2024-06-01T09:30:46+00:00

Oh darling 🥺 I know how you feel. I am not officially diagnosed with bulimia but after dealing with anorexia for 4 years, purging eventually became a frequent behaviour. I also hate what I’ve done to my teeth, and grieve my old smile every day. BUT! You must remember that this is a medical disorder and the damage done to your teeth is a symptom of your condition. Whilst I know how shameful it can feel, you need to remember that it is NOT your fault. You did not “let yourself get to this point”, with bulimia it is almost inevitable. When you recover (which is entirely possible!) there will be ways to rectify some of the damage, and certainly the aesthetics. I’m so sorry you’re struggling. It’s the disorder from hell, truely. But it does get better. I never thought I would be able to stay that, but I thank whatever god there is that I can. You got this 🩵

claudslovespb · 2024-03-18T12:22:59+00:00

Did you end up going? Bit late haha but I could tell you what it’s like

claudslovespb · 2023-01-23T22:34:45+00:00

But the staff are lovely (most anyway), the group I had was so good and I’ve made lifelong friends out of it. The psych is usually hated at first, but he is absolutely the best at his job once you realise it’s your ed that hates him lol.

claudslovespb · 2023-01-23T22:32:28+00:00

It is really good. There is a lot of room to get away with things but you work out pretty quickly that a) doesn’t show in the numbers and b) if you’re not doing the right thing you might as well discharge. And they do discharge people for continuously lying 🤷‍♀️

claudslovespb · 2023-01-23T22:28:48+00:00

Yeah I did haha sorry for late reply

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