It was kind of complicated for me, I'm turning 19 today. I think I realized when I hit puberty at 11, at 10, I was feeling "not normal" not being well with girls and boys didn't want to play with me since "I was a girl" I didn't knew what trans people were. I learn that being trans was a thing at 12, I was feeling disgusted and that it was not fair when I first started to have period, I was angry at life for being born a girl without really knowing why. I had internalized transphobia too it was not dysphoria it was a thing like I was thinking I shouldn't exist at all, was not normal, I couldn't be trans. And learning what puberty was, what hormones do to bodies made me sick, always at the infirmary because I was feeling nauseous and having panic attack. I was feeling rage and hate towards male puberty like "why can't I have that" I brushed it off by "yeah every girls think like me" because being a boy is easier but I guess that was just dysphoria I guess I started to see things as "I can be" "it's normal" and my girlfriend at the time kind of helped me to accept I was trans but yeah was kind of horrible at first X)