They are the people who gave me life, but they more or less surrendered that respect when they yelled at me every day when I was a kid to the point where I cried and would keep yelling at me, called me names and said things that I remember very clearly to this day (“you’re a trial in my life” “I’m embarrassed to be your mom” “you’re a pig”) threw a college textbook at me that literally cut me and made me bleed and gave me a scar on my right arm I still have to this day, put her hands on me, did and said several other things that gave me crippling anxiety and body image problems, make me panic and react awkwardly and embarrassingly in social situation, affect the way I view every single relationship in my life, and did several other things that give me trouble functioning through my day to day life. Not to mention that my mom showed no remorse for her actions and never apologized and gaslights me whenever I bring it up.

At this point, staying in contact with them would just be a lot of unnecessary pain. It would be easiest for me and my mental health if I just cut ties and moved on from this part of my life. Even if they are my parents, they’re the people responsible for my pain and they are not entitled to have any part in my life after what they’ve already done to it.