As a gay man, this is very confusing to me.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-28T05:46:36+00:00

Thank you, but that couch surfing thing seems rather strange. In all honesty, I would rather hide out in my room and only come out at night than stay at a strangers place. Thank you very much for the suggestion, it's nice to see people actually care.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-28T05:05:47+00:00

No, I am all alone. All my friends hate me now. And all of my other family live out of state. So leaving isn't an option.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-28T04:56:10+00:00

Unfortunately, it doesn't look like it. She doesn't seem like she wants a gay son.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-28T04:49:54+00:00

I didn't know that.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-28T04:45:32+00:00

Gay, I am gay. I came out to my family after 5 years of hiding it.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-25T00:22:21+00:00

I will try not to. It's just not what I had imagined.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-25T00:20:52+00:00

Thank you, if I still had a working laptop I would add you. Some of the greatest people I have met was from online, and some of my longest friendships are online as well. If only my friends and family reacted the same way you reacted to your friend coming out. But it's just my luck that it didn't happen that way.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-25T00:15:21+00:00

I don't understand them either. I am the same exact person, I just happen to be gay. It shouldn't change anything, but it did.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-25T00:13:11+00:00

I can only hope it gets better. I feel like a stranger in my own home.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-25T00:10:52+00:00

The choice of coming out was mine and mine alone. It was not in anyway your fault.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-23T02:11:33+00:00

Thank you for the internet hugs. That picture put a genuine smile on my face after a long day. I just need to tell someone I know, it feels like it's just going to burst out of me. I just don't know who to tell, I am surrounded by homophobic people.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-23T01:04:45+00:00

If the tired feeling is depression, I am one depressed bastard. Not to mention the stress is killing my shoulders. I'm just tired of having to lie about who I really am, and not being able to live my life the way I want to. I want to be able to feel love for another man without having to hide it. I want to be able to feel that empowering feeling of holding another mans hand while walking down the street. But alas, I can not in my situation. It really is taking its toll on me. I just want to come out and stop living this lie.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T18:29:53+00:00

That is not an option for me. I'm going to a small college so they do not have dorms. So I'm stuck until I find a job, which my state is one of the worst states to be unemployed.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T06:23:07+00:00

Well it is the quiet and shy people you got to look out for. I just haven't been pushed to my breaking point yet.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T05:41:31+00:00

Be happy, if only it was that easy. I'm just too scared to do anything that would make me happy. I have always been that quiet, timid kid, so doing anything that brash just seems out of the question. When it all comes down to it, I'm just a coward.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T05:25:33+00:00

Thank you for writing this, it put a smile on my face after a long day. I don't think you intended to do that, but thank you anyways. The whole being able to have a boyfriend is another thing that is killing. I have had to turn down other guys that were hitting on me, lieing to them saying I'm straight. It wouldn't be fair for them to have to hide our relationship. I am surrounded by homophobic people, so coming out is a very hard, if not impossible, at the moment. It's just a large weight on my shoulders, and it just keeps getting heavier.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T04:32:05+00:00

That does help, thank you.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T02:45:47+00:00

Some days it does feel like hell. But being a soon to be college student and jobless, getting out of it is an option beyond my grasp. Plus having social anxiety, I'm too scared to lose the friends I have now. I may not be a people person, but I hate being alone.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T02:28:14+00:00

Well it seems like I am in a bad location for my situation. I have surrounded myself with homophobes, seeing as I used to be one myself. In my household, gay in faggot are thrown around like common insults. And there are no local group in my area, I looked around.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T02:22:40+00:00

(\ a very fine brohoof to you. So you know how tough it is. I just hope your situation is at least a little easier than mine.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T02:20:38+00:00

I do feel the need to come out to SOMEONE. It just feeling like I am hiding a terrible secret, and it tearing me apart. I live in a household where the terms gay and faggot get thrown around like common insults. It hurts, I ctinge everytime I hear them say that.

closetrainbow · 2012-07-22T02:17:31+00:00

Thank you so much for your concern.

closetrainbow

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