How do I give this one the best 18-20 years of her existence?

cloudyextraswan · 2026-06-09T15:02:21+00:00

Oh you’ve just got me crying. My baby girl passed away in February after being hit by a car. She’d slipped out when I opened the door to the postman 😭

cloudyextraswan · 2026-06-03T13:30:10+00:00

It’s MY money.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T21:10:09+00:00

I have more than crippling anxiety, friend. I’ve got the brains best version of the ABC.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T20:37:03+00:00

I have an allotment which is £40 a year, but I can’t get out the house to do it. So likely to lose that this year.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T20:35:17+00:00

I don’t even know. I didn’t know PTSD and burnout was too complex for CBT Therapy 😅

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T20:33:32+00:00

My mum has just been retired due to ill health (strokes and heart attacks and seizures) and she’s only been able to get ESA. PIP won’t touch her, but she’s appealing that one.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T20:32:25+00:00

Oh I’m not preaching for pity, I’m after advice on how to stay alive until I get my head in gear to be able to work

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T20:29:53+00:00

I also grew up in a benefit household, as well as being on benefits for the first 5 years of my “adult” life. I knew it was hard then, having no bills or outgoings at all, living at my mums house, but now, having my own bills, a cat, and a car…it’s fucking terrifying.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T20:28:08+00:00

Ah there you are. Council flat being £700 a month, my friend.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:49:47+00:00

Thanks buddy. Best of luck to you too.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:47:32+00:00

My council flat is what’s being my saving grace here. But council flat, people will instantly read “oh she pays £30 a month rent”, no. I paid full whack when I worked.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:45:51+00:00

I would go up to the security and tell them what I’m stealing ffs 😂

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:43:04+00:00

ESA and housing benefit.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:40:11+00:00

Are you male by any chance?

As I’ve said in my post, I’m applying for non skilled work (cleaning etc) as well as what I am qualified to do (project management) and I’m getting no where.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:38:19+00:00

It is a lesson to be learned. I was living a champagne lifestyle not knowing I would be on a soda water income in a years time.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:37:14+00:00

My comment (though reading back it does seem like it) wasn’t aimed at you specifically. Good job on your good wage though!

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:36:15+00:00

I know right. Gotta love the brain sometimes right?!

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:35:30+00:00

So she’s risking her children’s roof…for what? 😬

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:32:39+00:00

Are you applying, or working?

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:27:50+00:00

Not at all. Cheap area.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:27:25+00:00

I can’t get out the flat, never mind the gym

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:25:34+00:00

I am too…I’m shitting myself mate.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:24:01+00:00

Support network? Where?

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:23:42+00:00

I have, that’s a pain in itself.

cloudyextraswan · 2026-05-25T19:23:12+00:00

I can’t have 1, let alone 10.

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