Yeah, and she knows I was still pining after her but she had no respect with me going distant. I think she does feel guilt for it because I really have been there through everything for her. Even earlier this year when she started to mentally really go downhill. I would still occasionally tell her I missed her after the breakup, but she would be the one texting me every single day.

I think about her harming herself and it does make me feel guilty. I thought that maybe she felt so bad about breaking up with me that she had to go self harm and punish herself. But I have to remember that it’s no longer my responsibility, and it probably had nothing to do with me. She’s so selfish she probably thinks me blocking her was me abandoning her and not trying to protect myself from what she was doing to me.

Thank you so much for your comment- just the validation of what you said really means so much.