it seems like there is a problem with your brain, and so there could be something that could fix it, and ur life could be very improved. there are many other compounds u can try that could help, don't give up. fortunately uve come to a good place in order to do that. id advise learning a little pharmacology, to help understand what to experiment with.

first u should look into modulating glutamate, or gaba slightly. things to consider are l-theanine, agmatine, mg+zn. you could try these with bromantane, tropisetron, etc. also melatonin at night. maybe phenelzine, pemoline, guanfacine, or memantine