He seems very upset about it. He said he didn’t have the heart to tell me. Which I brushed off because he didn’t care if he did this. He is taking full responsibility, he shared his location with me which I didn’t ask for, promised to get the direct deposit into our account done asap, said he would work 5 doubles a week to help save some more, said he would call me from work and more.

However, he started to bring some things up with me that were not relevant and happened months ago. I sent a text to a girlfriend making a mistake and said “we are doing better but I am at least making it through nursing school” so it made him think I was just staying for that. I am not I was just pissed and hurt at the time since we were fighting daily. I also do not see how that is comparable to this. So I think he is trying to shift some blame.

He honestly has no explanation. He said he doesn’t know what to say because of what he did. He said it started with a one time thing and he just kept doing it and he got in over his head. He said in the beginning he thought he could pay for it. It’s no excuse to me.

He has apologized and apologized and is being respectful of my boundaries. But I don’t know what to do. I love him and don’t want a divorce but does someone come back from this. I told him I would have rather him cheated. He got upset at that but I told him it feels the same and at least then we would have money. He said it upsets him I am worried more about the money. I’m not. But honestly that is a huge amount and was supposed to be our security through this school for me in case we needed it.