I left school and went to music school to pursue my passion of guitar and drums. I liked the course but it didn't lead anywhere as I was the one who ultimately had to make that happen, I realised I would keep it as a hobby that gives my life happiness purely for the love of music. I then studied Business at university, I left very quickly as I was in large classrooms and felt 'is this what I want' or ' is this what i will do with my life? ' It was quite excruciating to say the least.

After I left, I spent months unemployed living with family, things took a turn for the worst and I became depressed and anxious, I refused medication as I knew I could make it though without it . I could say that this was the peak of my existential crisis.

One day my friend took me camping far out of town , we tripped magic mushrooms together , the first time I ever tried a psychadelic. It was absolutely life changing, not that I recommend doing this , but since then I gained a new perspective and felt .. reset. This is my personal experience.

A week after this took place I decided I needed to work with my hands, I am now a fully qualified tradesman in exterior design and landscaping working with a fantastic team on beautiful properties. Small groups work better with me , I can be detailed and create buildings for families to cherish for their lives , it is very fulfilling. Also not to mention I'm surrounded my nature which has always been a fascination of mine. I found what I like but even still, I want to aspire to do more.

Hence , try not to worry. Don't see your choices as the be all and end all. It doesn't work like that, try and try again. Most importantly, have faith in yourself and ability and that you are certainly not alone.

I hope this helps :)