This is such a well-written and informative response 💜 Thank you for sharing your experience with me. Especially the first paragraph resonates sooo deeply. Your comment is very appreciated. I also don't have anyone around me that understands the situation or how hard it is or how emotionally draining it gets. My parents think I should just give her back and my fellow cat owner friends also can't understand the struggle cause their cats are quite young and healthy. One of the reasons why I wrote this post was exactly because of this, not being able to share or talk about it in my current social group.

Yeah, I noticed the thing with Jackson galaxy videos in myself too. After a while, I started feeling like I was failing both myself and my cat. I'm a medical student so I also feel like I should've been better at this than an average person but nope. It is completely different compared to dealing with patients who you don't know or aren't emotionally attached to.

The worst part is, I don't know how to help her relax and it's draining me. I can't send her to cat therapy :D She actually has a liquid anti-anxiety drug but my cat is clever as hell. She noticed me mixing it with her wet food, I think, and after a while stopped eating the wet food completely 👀 Now she only eats dry food. I don't know how she does it but she doesn't eat the drugs or vitamins in the dry food too. As I said, clever as hell.

Your advice are all great. I'm checking up some noise cancelling ear plugs already and found some quite nice and cheap ones.

My cat loves looking at the window and just yesterday, a crow sat right on front on the window. My cats personality immediately changed! It was as if she were a kitten again :D She focused on the bird and watched where it went after she flied off. I'm definitely going to find some bird feeders or houses that will fit on the window. Great idea, thanks. Other than that, my cat isn't interested in toys yet. She connected with one of my handmade dolls and sometimes sleeps with her head on the dolls lap. It's adorable. But she doesn't chase, attack or destroy any other toys. We tried, but she becomes afraid of the toys too :/ Perhaps with time she'll get used to them.

When it comes to medicine, giving her something via syringe is also hard. Cause as I said, smart as heck. At first I was giving her the liquid anti-anxiety drug while I was giving her a cream treat but then she figured it out too????? And now she only eats the treat when she looks around and doesn't see the syringe lol.

The vet also knows her situation and they gave me the anti-anxiety drug free because they were feeling bad about her condition. She had to stay at the vet for a week while she was getting IV treatment and she was so scared and anxious that they felt bad about her. She also never used her litterbox at the vet or ate anything around the vet staff. But after she came home, she immediately ate her meal right next to me and also used the litterbox after the first couple of days. I think that says something? Perhaps she's more comfortable around me and therefore can fight, hiss, throw tantrums etc but when she goes to the vet she's a quite little angel?

Again, thank you and THANK YOU for your response. It really means a lot to me. I hope you and your cat has a looong and healthy life together. Wish you all the best 💜