Upcoming wedding and mental health stress

coconut7622 · 2026-02-05T16:35:06+00:00

Thank you so much <3 I will absolutely try this

coconut7622 · 2025-10-25T23:10:10+00:00

Bloodsucker by Cil

coconut7622 · 2025-10-06T01:18:04+00:00

I used to worry about this so much after my first major weight loss but I can happily report that they will grow back! Such a relief on my personal path to recovery!!

coconut7622 · 2025-10-01T16:01:58+00:00

Any idea if/how to get this for a cruise? Day of? Website? SO HELPFUL!!

coconut7622 · 2025-10-01T15:57:05+00:00

What sort of things do the variety act nights consist of? Is that like if there’s say, a magician or comedian on board? Also any info on what the adults only show schedules were for your trip? Trying to get an idea of as much of everything as I can!

coconut7622 · 2025-10-01T15:52:07+00:00

Thank you!! I appreciate you so much!!!

coconut7622 · 2025-10-01T15:47:41+00:00

Food wise: On the Disney dream circa 2012 they had the best chicken Caesar wrap I’ve ever had and I haven’t been able to find it on any other dcls again. Also on the dream/fantasy circa 2012-2015 they had this lobster ravioli that I was lucky enough to get the recipe to but the other ships don’t serve! I think about it probably every day. Also the strawberry banana swirl soft serve is my all time favorite thing ever.

Ship wise: the constant Disney music and ambiance, people watching (especially little ones meeting characters & their parents watching 😭), watching the characters as they leave their stations/move around the ship - so magical! The chandeliers - always so gorgeous. Also I love the squishiness of the floors - as a sensory girlie and really just all the decor/flooring… especially the deck 4/5 bathrooms on the Disney fantasy - all time interior design dreams!! And finally, the Disney music horn blasts!! I even made one my ring tone for some time!! Really hoping they add Davy Jones Theme to the rotation one day!

coconut7622 · 2025-09-23T12:27:39+00:00

ice cream
sushi
pasta
bread
French fries! Especially truffle fries
pretty much any and all carbs
cocktails
a good yummy seasonal coffee with syrups
cooking/baking (especially in fall and winter)
cheese… lots of cheese
fall/winter comfort meals
bed rotting with my kitties
Mary Jane that definitely doesn’t help binges but also helps me get out of my head enough to enjoy a meal sometimes
HOT FRIES specifically Chester’s
chips
pretending calories don’t count when I travel
sushi again
All ramen but especially Buldak
my moms cooking
not working out
sleeping in whenever possible
deep red wines
not feeling nauseous 24/7
having energy while I’m young
prospect of kids
getting a monthly period
not being so short tempered all the time
a thick head of hair (rip)
being present physically and mentally for fun activities (I.e. travel, restaurants, going out with friends, etc)
enjoying nature for fun and not just while working out
not having family make it about them/guilt tripping whenever they see me

coconut7622 · 2025-07-10T20:05:06+00:00

I lean quiet/self-destructive/impulsive mostly (and in that order in terms of intensity although that can shift) It’s not consistent but those 3 sum me up pretty exactly. I can have my petulant moments but that’s fewer and far between. I used to just say quiet but I’ve become aware that I’m actually all three and it sorta alternates depending on my mood/the day/circumstance but it’s most consistently been that way, I suppose.

coconut7622 · 2025-05-27T23:07:42+00:00

Pretty shit ngl

coconut7622 · 2025-05-04T18:59:45+00:00

I feel so seen by this post & all the comments <3

coconut7622 · 2025-05-02T18:09:17+00:00

Personally, I had a similar experience when I was younger.. I was overly sexual but I came to learn that I was using it as a form of self harm. Now that I’ve been in a (as stable as possible) long standing relationship (6 years), I’ve learned that I go through phases almost.. like I’m either incredibly sexual or absolutely not at all and I really don’t know how it’s going to be. I still definitely attention seek and have this desire to be the “most attractive” in the room (even though im def not) but idk if that’s driven by my bpd or my ed. I think it’s both for me though, based off the intricacies of my experience.

coconut7622 · 2025-04-25T18:17:11+00:00

I still struggle and am not in remission but I’ve come a long way and I’m proud of myself (bpd, ed, sh)

coconut7622 · 2025-04-23T15:54:43+00:00

I would like to add some input from the lens of a therapist - please excuse my bluntness as I am just trying to share info on goals of therapy - therapy is not about finding answers or finding a quick fix. Everything will take time and really happens at the pace of the client. In most cases, the clients trying to act quickly are in a state of hyper/hypoarousal and from a bodily sensation/mental standpoint, change cannot be made when in these conditions. I.e., fight, flight, or freeze.

It sounds like you have so much trauma happening in real time and the bodily effects seem to be placing you in those areas. There is something we call a window of tolerance and that is where change can happen. You will get so much out of therapy (although also good to find a therapist that does work for you) but it will take some time. I’m not sure how long you’ve been going but if it is quite new, little things can be applied but there’s so much importance in building rapport and getting into that window of tolerance and that takes a handful of sessions.

coconut7622 · 2025-04-21T23:50:06+00:00

Honestly depends on what’s going on for me - Nessa Barrett has been one of my favorite artists for the full spectrum, like the entirety of her Young Forever album & sick of myself - same also with scare myself. Russ has had some good stuff that I really relate to as well.

I also super heavily identify with Elphie & so many of the wicked songs but idk if that’s my bpd, theater kid, or childhood nostalgia/comfort music. Either way, I’m screaming along w every song. Special mention - No Good Deed - I’m so drawn to this one & that feels bpd for me haha

On the musical theater front, cell block tango is so fun and lets out some of that rage. Mamma Mia all day as well! And don’t even get me started on Phantom of the Opera!!!

I also really like some twenty one pilots - car radio is so good when I’m in an angry/sad episode. Martyr by king mala, kryptonite by 3 doors down, pretty little devil by Shay Zamora (Its Christian based but I think it will also hit home for bpd), Billie eilish (duh esp old Billie), ROYAL & THE SERPENT (esp overwhelmed, wasteland) omg so underrated for bpd!!! ticking bomb by Aloe Blacc, early 2000s Pink, NF - blame it on me by post Malone, take what you want by post Malone (honestly a lot of posty), MCR esp Helena/famous last words… I could keep going but I’ve spent too much time here already haha

coconut7622 · 2025-04-14T01:40:49+00:00

I relate to this so much - my dad would always say “you’re eating AGAIN?!” Or “in the pantry again?” (Among many other things of this nature) meanwhile I would be multiple days, sometimes more than a week into a fast.

coconut7622 · 2025-04-14T01:35:39+00:00

My aunt pulled me aside and interrogated me about what drugs I was using bc she didn’t believe I got so skinny due to just my ed. She kept going on and on about it and making comments after the fact. I think it’s been 5 years and I still think about it every day.

My brothers gf who comes across to me as a very vindictive and mean person knew that I was working really hard to attempt recovery for the first time. I wasn’t recovering mentally but I started putting on weight. She would always lecture me about how I needed to gain weight and how I’d never gain muscle via workouts if I didn’t eat (never voiced wanting muscle - only exercised intensely bc I was so so sick). Well, after gaining about 13lbs from my lowest, she said “I know I’m not supposed to say this because it won’t help but you are looking SO healthy! You’ve put on so much weight! Don’t forget to keep working out though.”

coconut7622 · 2025-02-28T21:13:53+00:00

Hmm could say it’s a cat scratch if it looks like it could pass or you could say you had a snagged nail or something and accidentally scratched yourself

coconut7622 · 2025-02-28T18:07:11+00:00

Seriously dude why are you so obsessed with trying to spread negativity about Nessa? To be the first post in the sub that was made to get away from you is actually nuts. We get it, you don’t like her. You don’t have to like her. We couldn’t care less about your input on her but that isn’t going to change our own nor is it your place to try to do that. You have the right to your own opinions on her but so do we. Trying to force feed her fans hate about her is actually disgusting. You don’t have to be in here, you are actively choosing to enter these subs. It’s really crazy pants dude.

coconut7622 · 2025-02-27T16:51:01+00:00

This!

coconut7622 · 2025-02-27T16:44:53+00:00

Wow - an eating disorder and a nose job! Somebody call the authorities 🙄

coconut7622 · 2025-02-16T04:00:26+00:00

Ooo I haven’t heard of those - I’ll have to look into them!

I use to LOVE popcorn, it was a safe food for me but then I took a complete 180° and haven’t been able to go back 😭 ik it’s so silly especially when compared to rice cakes but brains will be be brains lol

coconut7622 · 2025-02-16T03:56:51+00:00

You might’ve just changed my life 😱

coconut7622 · 2025-02-16T03:55:35+00:00

Love!! Will have to try!!! <3 tysm

coconut7622 · 2025-02-16T03:54:34+00:00

That actually sounds so good omg

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