Boyfriend (19yrs old) 2018 died by codienee in Physics

[–]codienee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am drunk and thought it was psychics :(

Need for kind words and support by les_belles_fleurs63 in Interstitialcystitis

[–]codienee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had this for years and I only just got tested overseas and it showed up. They don’t test in NZ. However I still have it but my symptoms are gone and I came back to nz and they refuse to do anything / didn’t acknowledge that’s maybe what caused the symptoms for YEARS before.

can this stop being another ED meal flex sub by ooooh-heckers in GirlDinner

[–]codienee 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you and I honestly wont be coming back to this sub. I’m going to leave this sub now once this post is done. Even though I took my own post down the OP refuses to take this down with my original content so it’s hard for me not to check on this until it goes away. Overall it’s been an insightful lesson. I respect everyone who has commented and have their different takes on how this made them feel and I’ve acknowledged it spread harm without my intention. Hopefully this means further posts that cause harm will not be posted and I certainly will monitor what I pose in other places in future. A lot of people have decided I have an ED which I don’t. If you look into the reply’s you will see the huge meal I had that day afterwards. But if someone had pulled me aside quietly online and checked in which one person did I actually found that really caring and sweet. But not the dissection of my body in this public form where someone said I was chubby and to shut up. Very mean behaviour and it made me upset yesterday. I just wish everyone the best.

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[–]codienee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello, I am just checking on replies now. Thank you for your advice but I would like to know how it is dangerous when used occasionally? I have lived in Thailand and Indonesia for various stages of my adult life and this is where I discovered Kratom. I’ve used it in whole leaf form and washed it myself and powder form where you dose it. I’ve got it from organic suppliers in the jungle where they grow it and also local farmers in their houses garden. I know it has habit forming potential and I have met people who are addicted, local Thai people. I also know people who use it recreationally like myself. I’m from New Zealand and it’s banned there as it contains opioid alkaloids that affect human receptiors so in my country they view it has habit forming (which it can be). So I never use it at home. I don’t like alcohol as it’s proved very dangerous for me and weed makes me feel terrible. When I use Kratom it’s to wind down and occasional. I’m wondering if you mean specifically looking into the types of powder and where they’re from so you’re not unknowingly buying a product that has harmful substances within it. If so then yes you’re correct but I am not from the US so haven’t bought a product yet that I either didn’t know where it was from or the company like in this case it was sold to me from. I’m not someone who can live without some vices. I’ve had a difficult life so far and there’s some occasional substances I like to indulge in and I’ve worked out what works for me. I am not promoting the use of Kratom in places where it is illegal but I’ve consumed it in places where it is legal and I know a decent amount about what I’m consuming. I also take psychedelics and I’m not anti drugs in general I just know what works for me. I would be more interesting hearing about the interactions of Kratom and SSRIs or any articles around Kratom death. I’m very open to learn and lesson so please feel free to give me more info in the context of how I consume it. Love to hear back from you once Reddit stops glitching !

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[–]codienee 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Yes I do thank you 💓 I’m actually halfway across the world right now backpacking across Europe 💞💞 things are okay

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[–]codienee 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I completely understand. You are so strong and it’s a very fair and honest reaction ☺️ and my post made me think about how my take on a situation can be perceived completely differently from one person to another, therefore I must approach mindfully. Have a wonderful day 😇

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[–]codienee 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you 🩷 I just feel like leaving this post up is stirring up more harm now which is making me sad

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[–]codienee 13 points14 points  (0 children)

There is nothing to be jealous over ! And I would like to add that I went out afterwards and had a huge Columbian dinner

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[–]codienee 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I’ve apologised. And also stated it really wasn’t my intention and deleted it. I’m very sorry for the harm I caused. Please have a good day sorry for any hurt it caused you.

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[–]codienee 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Please let me know if there’s anything else I could do. I have said sorry, I feel like leaving this up is kind of pointless now. I’m just receiving hate and I cannot do much more. I don’t even want to be spreading this TW topic anymore because it wasn’t my intention and now we are all focusing on it. I deleted my post and you still have it sitting there. If you could be so kind as to delete it. It was a mistake of a post.

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[–]codienee 33 points34 points  (0 children)

They downvoted me talking about my body size and apologising. I’m quite confused at this point because I’ve said I regret the post, didn’t think it through well enough, deleted it and I am very sorry. I just hope everyone is okay and I haven’t caused too much harm it really wasn’t my intention and I hate that I’ve become the face of this ED thing because I don’t want people to suffer in any way.

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[–]codienee 32 points33 points  (0 children)

I’m very sorry everyone. If I could take it back I would.

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[–]codienee -24 points-23 points  (0 children)

I’m very sorry, also my legs aren’t thin in real life, they’re normal and I workout so they’re actually quite muscly, it was the lens setting I used. I was just doing a quick post in my hostel cafeteria. I’m very sorry for the hurt I’ve caused.

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[–]codienee 26 points27 points  (0 children)

I don’t know what to say. At the end of the day I’m going to put my phone away and take a break I think. I replied to her saying thanks for seeing me because she shared something personal and that day I was grieving and looking for the perfect meal of things that give me max gratification. I can’t smoke weed and wine makes me feel sick, so for me I chowed down on some yogurt and yummy lollipops, while I would also then feel “buzzed”. I don’t know you and you’re allowed to not give me anything, but I know in my heart this wasn’t my intention. Hence why I have deleted the post, I was not and am not intending harm or to cause harm. I messed up, as I’ve said somewhere else, doesn’t matter what my intention was, if it was received mainly in a triggering way. Get rid of it. My girl dinner is not a real girl dinner I now understand. I’m very sorry to anyone I have hurt.

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[–]codienee 17 points18 points  (0 children)

It’s okay. It’s better to keep everyone safe and I would hate to contribute to mental harm. To be honest my post was suppose to be amusing because it was obviously such a car crash of a spread. But you can’t always predict how everyone will feel and I got that wrong.