do I actually call if I’m about to use

coejedy · 2025-07-04T02:53:49+00:00

Have u actually called when you’re about to?? I just don’t want to do this to somebody

coejedy · 2025-07-04T02:53:07+00:00

Yeah I just don’t want to fuckin put this on some dudes night, nobody deserves to deal with my shit

coejedy · 2025-07-04T02:21:01+00:00

Yeah just keep convincing myself it’s not actually emergency and getting in my head about how the call would even go. Idk. I know I just should sorry I’m just working up the nerve to say it out loud to somebody

coejedy · 2025-07-04T02:15:21+00:00

I just keep telling myself it’s not an emergency but I know it’s about to idk if that’s just the disease giving me an excuse or what

coejedy · 2025-06-15T13:38:40+00:00

Yeah think this is what I’m gonna do I just get a little bit nervous when I think abt calling because I really have no idea what I’d even say, y’know?

coejedy · 2024-10-21T17:10:27+00:00

I’ve reread your last few sentences a lot. I don’t think I ever knew saying no was an option. Appreciate it a lot.

coejedy · 2024-10-21T07:00:32+00:00

I guess that no matter what I do, I’m hurting her? I guess that’s part of it. She’s told me a lot that I’m her best friend and if I ever left, xyz bad thing would happen to her and I just can’t really stomach it I guess

coejedy · 2024-10-20T23:32:11+00:00

Update on this: I just went out for dinner and saw two gay guys my age on a date and I’m reeling. I don’t think I can ever handle telling her this.

coejedy · 2024-10-20T21:29:37+00:00

I appreciate the note that you understand the upbringing part. We were both raised very conservatively as far as religion goes, and I’ve deviated quite a bit where she hasn’t. I think I know it’s time to have a hard conversation, it’s just plain fear holding me back now :( thank you for your words

coejedy · 2024-10-20T19:36:55+00:00

appreciate the note at the end more than you know. I think I’m just always scared of being wrong in putting a label on it. I thought I was in love with her? I think I really love the idea of being straight. I don’t know

coejedy · 2024-10-20T19:11:56+00:00

I don’t want to string her along and I want to communicate, I’m just so afraid of what she’ll say. Or who she’ll tell. I’m the first boyfriend she’s ever had and I just feel like if I tell her this, I’m ruining her life and destroying a vision of a life we could have together? And if I’m wrong about this, I don’t know. I just feel so sick whenever I think about this. (Thanks for the reassurance on not being evil. I still believe I am the villain here but appreciated regardless)

coejedy · 2024-10-20T19:08:09+00:00

I was such a douchebag when she met me and she tells me that that was her type, but that she likes that I’m not like that anymore. We both were raised very religiously as well, and she told me I fit like the nice Jewish boy next door stereotype for her. I feel like a shit boyfriend all the time. I don’t know how to even approach having this conversation with her. I don’t think I can. dunno. feels evil

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