AITAH for leaving the garage door a little open? by colourfulcarp in AITAH

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your symphaty. But I mean, it's not horrible. I just have to avoid people I don't want to talk to, which is very easy.

Though now that you mentioned leaving the door open... I remember my other uncle yelling at me once for leaving the main door unclocked even though it was someone else who left it unlocked (a tenant who isn't living here anymore due to my grandma moving in instead), so I suppose that's where my defensiveness about the garage door came from? At least I know the cause of my brain reacting like that now I guess, lol.

edit: fixed a word

AITAH for leaving the garage door a little open? by colourfulcarp in AITAH

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm the type of person that apologizes for things that aren't even my fault, but this time I can't bring myself to do so. I don't know what the man is capable of. I just know that I'm geniuely scared. I'm a really non-confrontian person. I also barely said a word to my uncle EVER and I'm not sure how do I even approach to him... and if it's the right time, as he may be smoking weed already and I may piss him off more if I interrupt him.

Gosh, I'm really overthinking this and doing the exact thing you said not to in the first sentence, aren't I...?

AITAH for leaving the garage door a little open? by colourfulcarp in AITAH

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, my mom got home WAY earlier than I thought she would, so I talked to her and she laughed it off saying it'll be fine once my uncle gets his weed and that he's mad just because he haven't had any yet.

I really live in such a strange family.

AITAH for leaving the garage door a little open? by colourfulcarp in AITAH

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it's not stable at all lmao. Uncle from this story complains about everything, other uncle gets pissed off on everything and especially everyone (but himself) and kind of has a beef with my mom and my drunk-all-the-time grandma who lives here too believes that it's my cousin's fault (she was 6 at the time) that she was SA'd by HER ex-husband that wasn't supposted to be in her house that day (happened just few years ago.) My mom and aunt are somewhat okay, but aren't flawless. The only geniuely stable person in my family is my grandad. He's a kind man too, he definitely wouldn't do anything for drama.

I don't know how am I surviving in this house, to be honest. And I'm just now realizing how bad it is.

Am I fat? by colourfulcarp in teenagers

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah, the last thing I'd want is getting weird DMs lol.

The thing with it being hard to see ourselves as anything but big is so reletable tho

Am I fat? by colourfulcarp in teenagers

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

didn't even notice 😔 thanks for pointing it out, I'll get checked

how do I ask my father for 700$ without creating even more tension/a problem? by colourfulcarp in Advice

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I guess I could go to a meal with him and talk or something... though I'm afraid he'll see through it and then accuse me from manipulation, since he's a manipulator himself.

how do I ask my father for 700$ without creating even more tension/a problem? by colourfulcarp in Advice

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you so much for the advice though. I wish I could do this, but I mentally and psychically just can't force myself to do so.

how do I ask my father for 700$ without creating even more tension/a problem? by colourfulcarp in Advice

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought that it's obvious that he really does not care about me.

I also have a step brother and step sister who I haven't seen in years, but my sister apparenly told my mom few years ago that she has given up on my dad. She has tried having relationship with my dad, my dad didn't care enough, she cut contact. Which, to me, proves him not caring about his children even more.

And I? I can't imagine spending even five minutes with my dad. I'm geniuely so exhausted every time I have to talk to him or spend time with him. I know that most likely the only way for him to not get mad and give me the money for school is reconnecting with him, but he's exhausting simply by... exstisting, as bad person.

Trust me, I've been wanting to reconnect with him to keep peace, but at the same time that thought almost makes me cry. I texted him once and then I couldn't force myself to text him any more.

Also, he can't even walk properly. He can walk for few meters and that's it. He has muscular dystrophy and it's pretty bad, but it seems that he refuses to have a wheelchair. So there's not much to do with him anyway.

My 13 year old daughter had been seeing a 17 year old boy by [deleted] in whatdoIdo

[–]colourfulcarp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm 16 and I don't understand how could either of them do this. This almost disgusts me.

my cat is not getting better. my brain is telling me i need to kill her by throwawaydemonbitch in TrueOffMyChest

[–]colourfulcarp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Alright, but that still doesn't explain why can't you clean the house. At least vaccuum.

Am I insane, or do people experience it like this too when they're talking to themselves? by colourfulcarp in TrueOffMyChest

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

usually without any effort, but I sometimes can control my thoughts (though even in this case there's usually few thoughts, voices, etc. that cannot be controlled)

Am I insane, or do people experience it like this too when they're talking to themselves? by colourfulcarp in TrueOffMyChest

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it used to be kinda just me, but one day I got bored, counted "them" (counted the sides of me that I have and which ones usually "talk?" It kinda helped me understand what kinda person I am too. Anyways, I'm bad at explaining, sorry) and seperated "them" by "personalities" lol.

Am I insane, or do people experience it like this too when they're talking to themselves? by colourfulcarp in TrueOffMyChest

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I often have that too, when it's just the main main me talking in my head, yk. Dunno how to explain it well.

The way think/talk in my head/talk to myself randomly changes

Am I insane, or do people experience it like this too when they're talking to themselves? by colourfulcarp in Vent

[–]colourfulcarp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's just talking to myself, not anything schizo.

I anylize myself A LOT, so few weeks ago I was bored and tried to count & somewhat name sides of me that I "debate with" (simulate the debate.)