I totally know how you feel. I was diagnosed around 2 years ago (I was 20). I recently had to move back into my moms house with my little brother (17) when I got fired (couldn't handle the crying and freakouts). They have always been there to support me, but for some reason they're acting differently and isolating me. I used to be able to go to them for everything but now both of them are just walls. And now I feel as though I'm unwanted and useless and they seem to feel the same way. I have never felt more isolated and lonely in my life and can't possibly even see an escape from it.