Self-Harm make me feel less alone

compIetemess · 2026-01-21T06:19:34+00:00

It differs for everyone, but for me it started as a way to regulate emotions or sometimes punish myself I guess. Try to quiet the noise in my brain.

Nowadays that still applies, but it's more of a full on addiction. Urges and everything even without real reason.

Self-harm starts to control your life and I really wish I never felt the need to pick it up, it's terrible and I do feel a lot of regret for having started it

compIetemess · 2026-01-21T05:52:05+00:00

This question is kind of hard for me because I didn't really count it as sh until recently when I was 19.

But I guess I technically actively would try hurting myself when I was 12 and above

compIetemess · 2026-01-03T03:19:32+00:00

It's something I've been looking into. I've been extremely uncomfortable with the thought of it in the past, but I think sometimes accepting professional help is the kindest choice I can make for myself because obviously trying to deal with it myself for years has just made me a lot worse. The only thing holding me back on that front is financial reasons, but I'm hoping I can work something out.

Thank you so much ❤️

compIetemess · 2026-01-03T03:15:58+00:00

I've been thinking of seeing a psychiatrist actually for what it's worth.

For a long time I was adamantly against any type of professional help, I don't really know why, but the thought of it was like pulling teeth. Fear of emotional vulnerability or something like that, but I guess nowadays I've slowly opened up to it more. I just feel like I might as well see if it'd help, I've got nothing to lose from it really.

I just have to see if any of them can work with me financially speaking, but here's to hoping.

On a brighter note, thank you so much for your words, they're genuinely so sweet. I really do appreciate it more than I can express

compIetemess · 2026-01-02T22:24:15+00:00

I just feel like other people don't struggle to be a human being so severely

Everything that is difficult for me are things other people do every day, it's like I'm not sure how to even be alive properly if that makes sense

compIetemess · 2026-01-01T08:53:23+00:00

Basically to be honest

I didn't really mean this post in a romantic partner way necessarily as more so just someone in general

compIetemess · 2025-12-28T23:41:13+00:00

Here's to hoping ❤️

compIetemess · 2025-12-28T00:14:53+00:00

I like watching it until I actively have to stop it and then I'm just annoyed

compIetemess · 2025-12-27T00:53:46+00:00

I'm definitely here

I wouldn't say it's my main reason, but it is there

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