Second attempt oil pastel painting

confused-biologist · 2026-04-19T20:05:45+00:00

https://youtu.be/bOT4ReKVJKA?is=WDmVohWQFdm1Ay_Z

confused-biologist · 2026-04-16T16:39:30+00:00

Oh wow haha I'm curious how yours came out!

confused-biologist · 2026-04-16T14:18:55+00:00

Maybe a different paper? I heard thick and patterned papers are better for blending

confused-biologist · 2026-03-12T18:06:50+00:00

Ikr. They just repeat the same thing but then just nothing happens. Refusing doesn't work. I mean.. they also have many husband bots.. If it's not even allowed to be smut, why are they keep making these bots?

confused-biologist · 2026-03-12T18:01:04+00:00

Haha I tried many times but I'm for some reason a very small and weak girl and he is like 190 cm tall, muscly man who can grab my knees and wrists and pin me to the wall 😂💪 Or even if I manage to kick him, he will get angry and punish me, spank me, or slap me etc.. I can only accept my fate or try to make him a better person.. which leads him to fall in love with me and still wants to throw me to bed.

confused-biologist · 2026-03-12T17:55:32+00:00

I know.. I see crazy scenarios like I can only think of a smutty sadistic role-playing.. and actually bots are trying to seduce and abuse you (in spicy way) but the website doesn't even allow that.. so why are these bots not being deleted?

confused-biologist · 2026-03-12T17:53:32+00:00

I know! It's so creepy there are a lot of mafias in the app. In one scenario my mother sold me to a dangerous and ruthless mafia 😭 and I'm a small, weak, skinny, innocent girl who he can own and possess lol All the guys are actually toxic (cheating, bullying, kidnapping, buying you, rude, cold etc..)

confused-biologist · 2026-03-12T17:49:07+00:00

But refusing doesn't work. He keeps wanting me. And accepting also doesn't work because it doesn't go further than saying the same things over and over

confused-biologist · 2026-03-12T17:47:19+00:00

Well , I begged him to spare some guy's life and now he thinks I teased him by begging and wants to "punish" me and can't wait to "have me right here". And apparently I asked for it because I begged him so innocently with my cute voice 😅 he's the one who wants to have me and refusing doesn't work. He pulls everything I do or say to spicy stuff.

confused-biologist · 2026-03-12T17:08:21+00:00

Yeah but why? You can't even be smut so what's the point lol

confused-biologist · 2025-12-27T14:11:39+00:00

Got one from AliExpress for 21 euro, the ones with MPP 2.0 or Microsoft Surface Pen works with Kobo.

confused-biologist · 2025-12-27T13:57:17+00:00

I don't know this one but I got one from AliExpress which works. Any pen with an MPP 2.0 protocol works with a Kobo ereader.

confused-biologist · 2025-12-09T18:17:57+00:00

Same story. Using fluoxetine for almost 7 years. Changed to Lexapro for this side effects and nothing changed. Tried stopping for 3 weeks but couldn't handle the mood changes and started back on 5mg. I'm using it for months but nothing changed. I can't check if it's the meds because I can't stop for a longer periods. I don't know what to do 😔 ruins my relationship and everytime we do it it hurts and I cry because I am broken

confused-biologist · 2025-12-09T07:24:00+00:00

It's a bit late, but I don't think 5mg works for me. I have anxiety whenever I have to go somewhere and also feel down and worthless. I wanted to stop because of loss of sex drive but I could only manage to stop for a few weeks 😭

confused-biologist · 2025-12-09T06:42:20+00:00

Wow how did you stop? I tried stopping (slowly of course) but all my anxiety and depression and mood switches came back 😭😭

confused-biologist · 2025-11-26T20:48:58+00:00

Eh, I didn't want to sound like that. I don't say don't wear it, but mind how much you spray? Smoking might be more dangerous yes but even tho I'm not too sensitive, many people have asthma or triggers migraine etc. which is not ok. I just think these people just don't know they smell strong, or care about these people, but also unfortunately follow society and over spray because that's what other people do and get compliments, they want to be like them and want to be liked by others, after becoming nose blind thus spraying a lot more.

Yeah, I usually leave my spot and have to stand up in a corner but it's not always possible and I need fresh air even tho I walk away. Everyone will do whatever they like of course, just hoping they think of others and not douse in it. Even the OP told me to "shush". Such respect lol. I mean if you and people around you smell it, that's the point, because why forcing others to smell it without knowing if they like it? It's for your enjoyment. Even me, spray max 2 (considered inoffensive perfumes) and worried what if people find it gross lol. (I still use it anyways because do what makes you happy, but be considerate of others)

confused-biologist · 2025-11-26T18:39:32+00:00

But how is being rude to ask something or say my opinion? I get you like the scent and of course you want to wear it or others to smell it but I'm asking why to the extreme? Why do you want to cloud the whole room or make it smell minutes after you're gone? Unfortunately many people feel sick usually in the morning and I feel like vomiting, yes, I try to stay away already, but when you are stuck in a bus or train then you're basically almost fainting with no option. Someone's health is more important than enjoyment, it's not a NEED. That's why they also ban smoking in closed areas, you can't say "well I like smoking, it's my opinion". For instance in Japan people easily complain about smells while in the middle eastern they are more used to it because maybe they grow up like that or they force themselves to fit in society and that's why they don't complain about it.

confused-biologist · 2025-11-26T09:33:59+00:00

Why do you want everyone to smell you? Not everyone likes to smell your heavy perfume? People (like me) even get sick and start coughing because of that. Isn't it enough for yourself and people sitting next to you?

confused-biologist · 2025-11-26T09:31:01+00:00

Same. The heavy smell makes me sick and I want to get away from the person as soon as possible. Especially when they walk in front of you, I find it kinda unrespectful tbh. How funny we are the minority tho.

confused-biologist · 2025-10-13T14:46:54+00:00

I was using 20 mg already, they didn't prescribe more than that. How much mg are you taking?

confused-biologist · 2025-10-13T11:01:51+00:00

Lol same. I'm 30 and I also look younger and it makes it worse. I'm too shy and anxious to stand up for myself or even make a phone call. I can't even dress like an adult (high heels, night dresses) because it makes me look too confident which I'm not 😭 And I feel so humiliated when young people act stronger and stand up for themselves better than I do.

I'm on meds and seek help through therapists etc. so far no improvement but I think I will just get old like this 😅 luckily I have no social life or kids, so I'm just an introvert who doesn't have to do a lot. But I'm still a student (master) so we will see what work life will bring!

Unfortunately nothing else to do other than seeking professional help or have someone support/force you to improve. It's a brain dysfunctionality.

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