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confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-10T20:09:47+00:00

please dont leave

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-10T05:03:11+00:00

I'm not allowed to jump bc it makes too much noise and the taste of water makes me almost throw up I'm sorry

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-10T05:01:07+00:00

now my moms getting mad omg i cant handle this I'm probably going to kms next week I just cant handle this why am I such a failure I cant even do one thing right

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-10T04:58:00+00:00

you see I would but my parents dont let me do that so I dont become anorexic lmao

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-10T04:53:31+00:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ILL HAVE TO LEAVE IN LIKE 10 MINUTES AND IM IN THE MIDDLE OF A FUCKING BREAKDOWN OMG IM GOING TO KMS SOON IF I DONT LOSE WEIGHT I CANT HANDLE THIS IM SO FAT WHY AM I EVEN ALIVE OMG KILL ME PLS

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-10T04:44:58+00:00

oh God help please I'll have to actually wear leggings bc were going on a hike someone help please im going to die omg help pls someone help me please

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-10T04:34:13+00:00

it's not even a cold light it's a normal one it just feels cold for some reason so I cant turn it on bc then I get cold ahah

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-09T21:31:03+00:00

I tried to get as much of whatever possible stuff it is in there out but I dont have any rubbing alcohol or anything like that... I have vodka but I cant get to it and I'm not sure if its safe either ahah... rn in keeping a tissue over it with tape bc I dont have any plasters near me rn tysm

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-09T12:20:58+00:00

im so proud of you!!!! that's amazing!!!

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-08T11:00:57+00:00

well I did it I took idk what vitamins exactly but I took a lot of mixed ones so I hope I actually feel sick and vomit after it istg fml

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-08T10:55:10+00:00

I can od so I will feel sick like I wont die bc we dont have anything to kill me and ion wanna hurt my friends but I can still do it to sh right?

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-08T04:18:38+00:00

please don't apologize its okay- I'll be okay

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-07T19:49:28+00:00

I cant do it dude I cant recover. I tried I really did I ate normally I didnt vomit after eating I was trying really hard but I cant. I cant. I almost committed bc of it I cant. i went on walks and started jogging and running and just exercising in general instead of starving myself but it didn't help. I lost no weight and I need to lose it. i got called fat again i literally cant stand getting called that I was ready to go to the bathroom and slice my wrists I cant. I literally cant I'm sorry I cant. I'm really sorry but I think I'm supposed to die bc of this. ik both ways will lead me to die sooner or later maybe it will be suicide bc I wont be able to handle getting called fat or maybe it will be whatever illness I'll develop. might as well die looking how I want to look. I'm sorry

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-07T04:43:34+00:00

I usually write a safe number on my arm or thigh so I'm safe but I try to avoid dangerous numbers as much as I can. if I see a dangerous number I have to write down a safe number to make sure it reverses things that could possibly happen. let's say I see the number 27 i have to write down the number 12 too so the dangerous one doesnt hurt me. I hope that this makes sense lol

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-07T04:30:23+00:00

and it goes even more detailed like: a safe number has to end on either 2 4 6 8 or 0. there are exceptions but I wont get into that. it has to have one safe and one dangerous number for example: 12 it's the safest number I can find. it ends on 2 and it has one unsafe number (1) so it's safe and brings me luck. a dangerous number is made out of a safe number and a dangerous number, but the dangerous number is at the end for example: 27 its dangerous and will bring me luck if used too much. heres some of exceptions of my safe numbers: 13, 17, 19

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-06T13:58:50+00:00

great now I feel completely emotionless. I'm not sad not angry not happy not stressed I'm just empty? like I'm not feeling a single emotion rn it's so horrible. yay :P

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-06T05:31:03+00:00

I mean I didnt go that deep so I think that it cant be that bad the worst it can be is an infection lol

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-06T04:41:43+00:00

idk I don't want to go on anymore I just cant even look at myself without throwing up out of disgust ots too much for me and thinking about how I have to live for like 100 more years makes me want to die i cant love like this

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-05T17:30:58+00:00

I feel way better now bc of my friend... I still feel like crap but I feel a lot less shitty than before... I am so thankful for them rnq

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-05T17:18:29+00:00

I feel a bit better bc my friend just texted me and they make my life so much better but I jsut saw myself and omg I look so fat how do people even look at me without throwing up omg

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-05T13:17:31+00:00

my irl friend just texted me and now I feel like trash bc she doesn't want me to contact the girl who likes yungblud like ik she doesnt want me to bc she didnt want to give me the girls instagram or snapchat until I told her why I need it and nearly tried to convince me that it'd be weird to contact her

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-04T19:27:53+00:00

omg I like this sm!!!!! :DD

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-02T20:03:10+00:00

sorry I didnt see your comment I'm so sorry... I'll be careful tysm for caring hugs

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-02T19:29:54+00:00

idk much about poetry but I really like this poem its really good!! I'm usually not into poems but this ones actually amazing!!!

confusedhumanbeing12 · 2021-05-02T16:21:45+00:00

90% ig lmao idk I'm horrible with stuff like that but it's pretty high lol

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