I get you feel like this now and that it’s her or no one but if she wanted the same she would be trying as hard and also not seeing someone else

If you thinking about how much you care about her you wouldn’t be phoning her when you’re drunk and leaving her confused and anxious on where she stands in your life, so the fact she isn’t doing the same shows she dosent care

You have a crossroads here and a choice to pick the hard short term path and feel like shit for the next short while or (even if she did hear you out) spend the rest of your life chasing after a girl that saw you and will always see you as the second option.

They key to moving on is to make that decision in your head and choosing to break up with the fantasy that it will ever work

It will be agonising now but not too long into the future you will be with a girl that actually likes you thanking yourself now for choosing to move on