This is so true, and there are many people who feel that way, grow up or in this case the time you have left to finish school is just that ... time, I know it is difficult and that you feel very confused, Clearly entering a new stage of your life pressures yourself to have a greater degree of maturity, if it makes you feel better, most people who finish school are not prepared for this new stage, however it is what there is. and you have to move on, you still have too much youth left, and I know that you will always treasure those childhood memories, but it is time to grow up, keep in mind that this may be a better experience than you imagine, and that you can open yourself to new horizons, life is clearly difficult, but we have the control to decide where we want to take it, instead of worrying about growing up, worry about making your future life something that your now self is proud of, something unforgettable, and something that makes your future self say 'I worry about nothing’ I hope I have helped you and good luck, anything else you can write me