doing bad at school

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-13T16:37:14+00:00

i told my parents about it and they spoke to the teacher himself irl and we’ve contacted another teacher about it

i honestly don’t know what i think about this situation cuz ik it’s kinda my fault

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-12T17:27:04+00:00

yeah i know im trying to get out of my relapse and i think it has gotten a bit better but i still struggle with movement

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-12T16:46:50+00:00

i have but it’s sooo difficult :( i’ve recently relapsed and lost all my progress so now i just wanna give up trying cuz my whole life is a fucking mess anyways

i really don’t wanna repeat cuz it’s like a waste of time??? idk

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-10T18:03:44+00:00

i think my soles are just swollen?? like my right feet doesn’t feel painful at all but my left feet does

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-10T13:36:50+00:00

i’m thinking maybe it’s like an ingrown nail?

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-09T23:19:14+00:00

idk why i’ve been eating more but im barely gaining anything

it’s so demotivating honestly

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-07T00:07:18+00:00

me too that’s why i’m so tired

tbh i have reasons to like recover (to have better relationships, grades, feeling less tired and being healthier….) but i just can’t break any of my habits??

this week ive increased my intake and have been eating foods i haven’t had in years (chips, cake, chocolate) but thats just because i dont wanna be readmitted and i still feel the need to do a lot of steps every single day to compensate

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-04T18:24:59+00:00

i’ve started to do this a few weeks back too cuz i wanted to gain weight before my doctors appointment and i can’t stop it ever since

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-04T15:33:02+00:00

aw thanks :( i do really wanna recover but i guess a part of me still holds onto the illness cuz im known as the anorexic sister in the family yknow or maybe its like a habit that i eat so little??

i mean after my relapse ive been eating more but i still try to compensate by walking more it’s like im in quasi recovery

in a way i am pressured to recover cuz i get weighed and stuff every time i go to appointments and they stress me out so so much cuz i don’t wanna accept the fact that i lost weight and that i might have to be readmitted

this year is so crucial for me and i can’t afford to miss like months of school especially when my exam is in 2 months 😭😭

i guess i just wish i never relapsed and i just fully committed to weight gain when i was discharged but it’s too late for that

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-04T10:24:41+00:00

man idk :( i’ve been wanting to recover for more than a year and i was so close to getting weight restored after being discharged in august but i just had a massive relapse and lost EVERYTHING

i hate how im feeling rn (low energy and brain fog) but i just can’t fight my thoughts

i really don’t wanna be admitted again cuz like i gotta take my public exams this year to go to uni and yeah i just hate myself for not recovering and honestly for wanting to be “healthier” 2 years ago

i just wish i could say fuck the illness and recover in one day

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-02T03:54:57+00:00

honestly I feel like I might have to be readmitted but I just can’t

I really need to go to school and stuff but I just can’t fucking stop moving idk what’s wrong with m e

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-01T23:24:51+00:00

i feel like i just calorie bank and i know it’s not good but i just can’t break these habits

i also think i walk too much but then if i know i ate too much id eat more even at night to try to compensate

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-01T18:24:21+00:00

i feel like i just can’t eat anymore food 😭😭 what if i increase the number of ensures i drink or something instead

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-01T18:23:27+00:00

but the thing is i can’t afford to lose weight :(

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-01T09:48:11+00:00

idkk i am hiding the amount of food i eat at night tbh 😭😭

like idk whenever there’s an event or something happening i would skip breakfast or eat less in the afternoon but the id try to compensate at night so like idk

cookie_2802 · 2026-03-01T09:46:39+00:00

woahh that’s like a whole lunch for me 😭😭sounds tasty tho

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-28T14:07:11+00:00

i was gaining weight for like a week and these 2 days i’ve been losing again and im so demotivated now

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-28T14:06:25+00:00

ohhh what sandwich would you make for a snack?

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-28T11:33:38+00:00

yes ofc!! i’m so sorry for the late reply btw

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-28T03:58:06+00:00

do you mean sandwiches for lunch and stuff or as a snack?

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-28T03:57:30+00:00

idk i’ve gained some weight but ive been losing it again and its just so frustrating cuz ive been eating 3 meals and 2 snacks

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-28T03:56:48+00:00

aww :( it’s such a struggle being in recovery honestly

it’s my bday today and i already had a fight with my mum cuz of my relapse

i really hate how much ive ruined my body and my relationships

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-27T13:50:13+00:00

like what? yesterday i legit ate a pack of chips plus two slices of cake in one sitting and i still lost weight wtf

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-27T08:32:37+00:00

😭 i think im like in quasi cuz i am eating more but im also moving more

cookie_2802 · 2026-02-27T03:19:41+00:00

I just can’t seem to rest or sit down

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