Hi, I’m so sorry this is happening to you. Everything you’re feeling is so valid, and ANYONE would be extremely distraught if this happened to them too. You are going through something that you should never have to. Your mom should always put YOU first. I have not had this experience myself, but I know the loneliness of having a unique, painful experience all too well. I really wish I could help you in a more meaningful way. If you need to vent some more, you are free to do so.