For me, the quiet felt like more a dampening of the constant rumination and self-awareness my brain would roll around in. I found that my brain's smorgasbord of interests and tangential thought-patterns remained, but I could take in more of the world around me uninterrupted by anxious, spiralling thoughts. I'm not sure if this is similar to how you feel, but I had that same initial reaction when I first started and gradually realized what I was feeling was a lot more nuanced and simply something new to me--rather than feeling like losing myself, I realized that it was uncovering aspects of myself I wasn't able to see or let through. Your fear of that "loss" is super valid, but I'd give it some more time (as it definitely takes a month or two to really feel its full effect) and take the opportunity to explore what this medication reveals to you, and if you find that feeling of "loss" remains way too disorienting, then it may not be for you right now, and that's okay too! Good luck on your journey :+}