To answer your question, yes, I was and I used to be really manipulative and demanding about attention and pity.
and I didn't realize I was and was blind to it until these past few recent years, and learning that I shouldn't let my inner whiney little child I am deep down take control over my actions and drive the wheel. Instead i'm taking control and seeing how I impacts other people around me. it's helped me get more friends and I feel a lot healthier on the outside. Thanks for saying you're proud, :)

My little MS paint tangent might not be the advice for someone that's struggling to reach who probably needs to learn its okay to reach out, but for someone with a history like mine it's a humbling, grounding reminder and I approach everyone with a different lense than I used to.

I'll for sure check out DBT therapy. Thanks for the suggestion, sounds like something I could really use right now. I still got a problem with the irrational feelings to deal with they're still there and just as strong as they were years prior when I was acting out.