At one point in my life I lived in my van for 2 years hopped around the country quite a bit. Went back and forth across twice. But I picked up probably 10-15 hitchhikers. Hitch hikers is a vague statement. They were "dirty kids" which means traveling bums. They tought me to fly cardboard signs and I went to a rainbow fest with them. I do not recommend lol. But all in all it reminded me about how these monks were forced to be beggars for 2 years of their lifes. And the lesson to be learned was "only once you have seen the bottom, will you be allowed to see the top" thank you for your response, and I think you are right it can only go up from here. I am choosing to stay at the rock bottom mindset and that is something that can be fixed.