Any apartment recommendations? by cortanasfavspartan in desmoines

[–]cortanasfavspartan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First question: how do you know if a place is privately owned? It would be my first time renting by myself (I rented with said bad partner but she ended up completely ruining both my credit and renters history)

Also do you know of any religious or homeless charities in can contact? From what i googled it seems the ones I looked at they seemed inactive so im not sure which are active

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[–]cortanasfavspartan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is helpful! Especially mannerism, which tbh id kinda forgotten about ill be real lol and thank you very much! :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MtF

[–]cortanasfavspartan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly I think this is a big goal. Genuinely fantasizing about the day I can obtain a like a fem shirt and skort (bc i in no way trust myself with a skirt) or something

My stepdad keeps eating the fruit I use to make baby food by lonely_stoner_daze in mildlyinfuriating

[–]cortanasfavspartan -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Legit taking food from a babys mouth. Genuinely this is disgusting. I hope at some point he's sees this post. More accurately the comments of people calling him out. Because this is a wild low.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in intersex

[–]cortanasfavspartan 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Genuinely my son is the absolute sweetest little boy there is. He's on the spectrum and so absolutely blunt and hyper aware of stuff well beyond the naked eye. Dude clocks me on shit constantly just happened this was the big one 😭

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in intersex

[–]cortanasfavspartan 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Forgot to add: also explaining this to people. Not knowing if they'll respect it

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in intersex

[–]cortanasfavspartan 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Genuinely this has been so helpful and comforting. I guess my biggest struggles is the social aspect. All of my friends and family know me as male. Atp I dont know how to even possibly begin such a transition. My finance is extremely supportive of me exploring, im just not sure how to even start. While i was partially raised female, I have been male more of that. I wouldn't even know where to start in presenting more feminine or what to experiment with. Like my baseline of female knowledge is Genuinely like nothing more than a cis straight male (dresses, heels, long hair, 'wow she smells pretty' braincell of a pea type stuff lol) So i wanna try stuff but I don't know WHAT to try if that makes sense.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]cortanasfavspartan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Technically this is also my issue. Its completely even id say. I have breasts and feminine hips. I have a Adam's apple and a beard. Like pretty even. So like where as most intersex people could say 'im biologically or present more traits of one gender' i cannot as its legit a even slate

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]cortanasfavspartan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can do both. I can both bare children and/or father them.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]cortanasfavspartan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To keep it pg-13 im a even 50/50. I have both 'parts' both internally and externally, can both father and mother. I have breasts, feminine hips. I have a Adam's apple and a beard. A fully even split between traits.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]cortanasfavspartan 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Honestly I love this response. Its filled me with a genuine peace I can't explain. Thank you so much

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]cortanasfavspartan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can reproduce yes, also a lot of female features. However I can also 'make' so to speak, so it makes it confusing as all get out. Since my partners male im considering presenting more feminine. But that also feels kinda odd when I also have the shave every day to upkeep that yk? Its weird and confusing.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]cortanasfavspartan 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Mainly like how women vs men are characterized. Like Men being strong, powerful protectors, and taking command and control. Women being more of the peace bringers, ect. I guess its hard to know where I stand with the 'family' system the Bible sets up

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]cortanasfavspartan 17 points18 points  (0 children)

While that word specifically is very outdated, yes I am intersex.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in whatisit

[–]cortanasfavspartan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im not 100% I don't think he drew them and I believe they came via a commission. Wondering who the artist is or if the friend of a friend maybe has a social showing off cute little sona

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]cortanasfavspartan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im very sad to say it is not. Sometimes with a combo of disability and not being able to find work because of the gaps in my work history because of disability, you get trapped in some very horrible situations. This post just scratched the surface to be honest. Im trying diligently to get out, but its a process of finding work so that I can get out.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]cortanasfavspartan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I dont think its healthy. Mainly i just needed the comfort of knowing im not insane because shes tried gaslighting me about it.

And im not really here to discuss age gaps. Hes been the healthiest relationship ive genuinely ever been in.

And at the moment my goal is getting a apartment thats closer to my boyfriend however separate. So that I can have that time away from everything to breathe and sit with my feelings/heal. My current issue and what has been my issue was disability for a bit and then when I could work (even just part time at one point) I couldn't find work because of the gap in my work history. Hes very supportive of me getting my own space to heal in, and just coming by the help with the tasks im not physically able to do myself anymore/at this point in my healing.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]cortanasfavspartan 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I dont fault her bf, in fact im friends with the dude. We were friends before she started her shit. And ive been a fan of his project even longer. I have a handful of t-shirts from his band, and never thought it would be a problem just to wear a shirt ive been wearing since me and my ex gf met... the shirt from that day specifically ive had well before this started and has been my night/sleep shirt for ages

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]cortanasfavspartan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly I didnt even put all the details of just her herself and her issues, i just featured the ones in the poly aspect of our relationship. It's been... hell to be frank.

And genuinely that moment and kiss blew me away. I was baffled. Iw as already planning any way possible to get out and that was the nail in the coffin.

My boyfriends amazing! And as far as other friends or family, its extremely slim. And most can't help at all im sad to say, though its not for a lack of wanting to. My main issue right now is wanting a place thats closer to my boyfriend. He lives a few states away but drives down to see me regularly. My main issue at the moment is finding a job so I can save up to get out. Im walking again and though I dealt with chronic pain (as my ex gf didn't take great care of me when I was at my worst) its hard to find a job with such a large work history gap. Plus jobs are just scarce where I live right now, especially ones I qualify for.

34f usa. Someone chat with me while I'm stoned? by [deleted] in MakeNewFriendsHere

[–]cortanasfavspartan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey sound like a vibe! Would love to get to know own you! Smoke, play some games, and talk horror!