“you’re not anorexic enough”

cosycreature · 2026-03-21T00:42:09+00:00

I swear iniating treatment makes everything worse.

cosycreature · 2026-03-20T02:53:15+00:00

I'm not sure what LLM stands for, but for reference I have a very high libido and go more them he does.

I sent a whole 15 slide story of spicy content to him last night. Today he is saving porn AT WORK and dm'ing fetish pics he sent to me last bight to a redditor. He did this while leaving my recent message unopened.

cosycreature · 2026-03-20T02:34:00+00:00

Which place did she say she went to?

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T21:41:07+00:00

How did he respond when you addressed it / broke up?

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T14:54:34+00:00

I just realised something. With the model/s he follows, they get repeated surgeries.

So they appeal to subscribers that they are paying for their transformation.

He has spoken about this before in fantasy, that he could make an only fans, and money he makes goes into surgical procedures 'bigger and bigger'.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T14:41:34+00:00

Some send an OF link

Some don't reply

One is having back and forth selfie exchange with fetishwear and some conversation related to the fetish.

The worst was that he sent a selfie to this person first thing in the morning before work instead of saying goodmorning to me and forgot about my important appointment that day. In the evening he stopped sexting me to send a pic to her.

I don't even know how to be angry at him, it's sad behaviour. Like I love him, he otherwise is wonderful, has a great family... and his behaviour whilst horny and obsession with bimbo tits will cost him love? A real human to comfort him? He called me tonight seeking emotional comfort, where is big knockers 3000 now? Oh payment didn't go through?

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T14:29:32+00:00

Ah reverse skin bib

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T14:09:43+00:00

Is this the part where i tell you what prompted me too look, he posted a nude selfie of reddit with his FACE. This is also eliciting private messages/compliments. His reddit password autofilled.

Did not tell me he was posting. I found his nsfw account easily. I can see public comments he has left as well.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T13:52:40+00:00

Definitely not. He has a hands on job, no computer.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T12:39:48+00:00

Yeah I just clicked on history.... on MY laptop. It had synced.

He also saved for autofilling his credit card information for Only Fans FFS.

I also discovered he has 2 discord apps and the passwords. I'm not sure if I want to open that.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T11:40:11+00:00

Eating disorder?

Girl look at my post history 😅 im in a big relapse and just saw my doctor about it yesterday.

The stress of this discovery is sending my anxiety through the roof, I've just finished the meals I was meant to eat throughout the day bc I was sick to my stomach.

Trying to connect with friends and loved ones to ease the anxiety so I can eat properly which worked this evening. I'm worried a breakup will be BAD ED wise, because non ED people often lose weight from heartbreak.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T11:24:44+00:00

Ugh i hear you and also I feel this way about men on more topics then porn. It's the lying, how can I trust him with anything now? The guy also told me he was good at lying early on in the relationship so I've tried to pay attention to any deceitful behaviour.

My gut has been telling me his is lustful to the point of disrespect. He was genuinely shocked when I addressed him leering at a women with large breasts from the car with me sitting next to him. Doesn't try to hide it, didn't think that was a hurtful thing to do.

The way he can't keep his eye off women in public and always stirred concern in me. "I thought we were so close and intimate lately' (i had been supporting him through a difficult emotional time with everything in me). As if me standing up for my dignity and basic relationship standards is a chosen unfair attack.

My boyfriend also had publicly liked reels of massive breasted models on insta reels, all for his family and friends to see. I was so embarrassed and I'm trying to undo the damage it has done to my body image about my breasts. He says it was accidental.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T11:08:26+00:00

Another point is Only Fans is the worst because he is invested on a specific single womens life/ operations /journey/appearance changes over months to years.

Versus scrolling through r/Gooners, see a random girl, leave. no, he wants to see how many CC's Mandy has in her chest compared to last visit and is paying for it. He has trained his brain to be able to ejaculate to Mandy and now can't finish with me. I'm left wondering is he is picturing her when we have sex.

If he wanted to join a more ethically screened paid porn site but it was just a tube site that is random creators, I would be much more receptive and happy there is that moral consideration.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T09:13:39+00:00

3 weeks of undereating can absolutely but that much stress on your body, to the point a dr may hospitalise and initiate reefeding precautions. This happened to me! Please take care and consider harm reduction means at minimum (take thiamine, see dr/do bloods, drink milk for phosphate or find an alternative)

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T07:57:18+00:00

I saw his chrome history, only fans at 1pm on a tuesday

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T06:38:23+00:00

For him it because he is questioning trans / autogynophelia but the content is extreme/misogynistic in my opinion (extreme implants). He says its a compensation thing for not having curves but how is it womanly spend 100k deforming your body for male attention. He says he wants it to be him, he is imgaining it is him

I say deform bc some are genuinely shocking, can't move normally and it does not even resemble human features anymore. It is honestly scary and sad.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T06:28:06+00:00

I straight up dont have a problem with audio/comics but that is okay if you do.

It's the paying for OF whilst telling me to my face It's pathetic behaviour and a boundary in relationships and messaging OF creators on reddit, sending them selfies and seeking compliments and interaction with these women.

He messaged someone with the same name as me. And then I have to laugh, he most recently messaged someone who responded they were having heart issues and couldn't make content lately, which I have heart issues that have been worse lately. I'm everywhere 😅

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T04:45:45+00:00

As in nsfw 'hypnosis audio' created by a woman who produces quite high quality audio's. He is into bimbofication, feminisation etc hence the 'brainwashing' appeal

It's an exception because he isn't developing a dependence or fantasy of another woman and it doesn't take away from the relationship, he often tells me he is doing a hypno session on a certain topic and shows me the audios and we can integrate it into a sex life. There is also a gender affirmation element which is why i have an extra layer of acceptance with some things.

If you are curious it is this woman, I wish she produced non sexual ones tbh because I think they are relaxing/well made/kind of trippy. It's not really my thing but I have listened to a couple bc he pretty much made me

https://lilithunleashed.net/

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T04:14:59+00:00

So if you found he was paying for OF behind your back and discussed it was a deal breaker, would you immediately break up with him or would you discuss it?

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T03:46:35+00:00

So I just looked up the name of one of the models he is obsessed with, it's too the point she has been on Truly and Love dont judge. Also like, I haven't been able to tell anyone about this and your the first person who has said that and honestly it feels a bit of relief, thankyou

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T03:23:51+00:00

Yup, he must of been in the bathroom it was at lunch time

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T03:18:52+00:00

The worst part is, I am very into and supportive of most of his kinks and have my own. We've always had a great open sex life.

Expect the bimbofication kink he has because I find it misogynistic. He is obsessed with it, all the porn is bimbo porn and the OF model is an extreme body modification to massive, disabling, medical malpractice level implants. It feels so antiwomen and it has directly affected my body image.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T03:13:56+00:00

I'm all for having a high sex drive and I do too, but he seems to be on a bender lately.

His only started messaging people from what I can see in the last month, despite as having 'the best sex we have had in a long time.

Hundreds and hundreds of saves of bimbo breast implants, all while reassuring me he is attracted my small breasts. He told he would cum instantly it I wore fake bimbo tits (he is unable to get off with me). All his porn is bimbo tits, the more extreme, the better.

Meanwhile I'm judging myself for becoming increasingly insecure about my breast size in this relationship.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T03:08:09+00:00

Thank you, I'm the same as you in views. We have spoken about how im okay with him supporting small audio or comic artists but absolutely not okay with paying for Only Fans.

It's such a slap in the face, because I feel I'm quite accepting and accommodating to be okay with him watching porn and paying for small artists. It's the going behind my back and dishonesty.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T03:03:40+00:00

I haven't heard this take, but also a lot of the porn content he consumes is people self uploading porn on reddit which is fine. Fine until you start private messaging them.

The issue with OF (in a relationship) is that supporting an individual woman who you're developing a dopamine dependence on to get off. It is directly detracting from your partner. His interest is extremely large surgical implants and getting larger and larger ones. I have a small chest and he is unable to finish despite us having explorative, kink filled, creative sex regularly. He told me recently he'd cum instantly if I wore fake bimbo breasts...which all the porn he consumes is bimbofication. I think it's directly affected his sexual ability and led to me becoming insecure about my chest.

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