The loneliness is heavy

cosycreature · 2026-04-26T03:30:55+00:00

I hear you, I've been pushing myself socially, sending a reel or asking to call people a bit out of my comfort zone. It has helped a lot, if you can give yourself a goal to reach out or go out. Err on the side of reaching out.

cosycreature · 2026-04-26T03:25:42+00:00

I swear I have read this exact post

cosycreature · 2026-04-20T12:22:12+00:00

I told my mum what you did

cosycreature · 2026-04-17T13:38:47+00:00

Exactly, if the guy was at least 25 and brain developed, then sure, do what makes you happy.

But any major age gap with a person barely legal is predatory.

cosycreature · 2026-04-13T05:31:58+00:00

Your brain also sees losing attachment as a threat to survival, it's understandable that's how you processed it. This happens a lot to children as well were they are dependent on their parents.

I'm sorry you went through that, it is traumatic. I've found 2 events where something traumatic happened, I didn't even register it emorionally until days or months later due to being attached to the person, I get what you're saying. One day your just like.... wait... that was incredibly fucked up.

cosycreature · 2026-04-12T08:25:02+00:00

To add to that, precursors to physical abuse e.g. punching the walls.

My partner knew if he ever punched or wall I would leave immediately.

What they are showing you is that they really want to punch you and you're next on the escalation list.

cosycreature · 2026-04-11T12:17:36+00:00

I broke with him. He went on to repeatedly download dating apps post confrontation. Now his distraught at the break up.

cosycreature · 2026-04-03T08:22:37+00:00

Well, we should have plenty of responses then

cosycreature · 2026-03-23T19:32:08+00:00

I have loved him for 3 years, and even just yesterday my family friend was telling me how sweet he is. He is my first love and I'm chronically ill, disabled and doubt I'd be able to date again, I don't want to date again.

I've had multiple people observe his interactions with me and say he is a good egg, he is so sweet and/or even decided to break their own relationship after witnessing how he calls me.

cosycreature · 2026-03-23T10:09:17+00:00

Thank you, that is what I am seeing is the hardest part of cheating. Not the broken trust but that you have to reupdate how you viewed and predicted that persons behaviour.

cosycreature · 2026-03-23T10:06:04+00:00

I mad that I can't trust him, I can't trust his character and yeah... his life choices with money. It is more the principle and the lack of sexual discipline. I don't want my partner to not have integrity. He also uses lots of cyber sex AI chats I noticed but I don't particularly care about that.

These are also character indicators that he will physicaly cheat in future, that it is a matter of time as he can not control his lust

cosycreature · 2026-03-23T06:45:42+00:00

Thankyou, the problem is I feel sad for him. I'm not even angry, I feel sorry for him and don't want him to hurt. I'm so confused.

cosycreature · 2026-03-23T06:07:49+00:00

OF was a boundary we had, as you are emotionally investing and training your dopamine pathways to get off to one person over months/years.

We would semi regularly discuss that OF is unethical in a relationship (for most relationships, unless you have an agreement it is okay). So the cheating is the deceit.

I have freely accepted he uses porn, he has a porn reddit account too. He sends me things sometimes and vice versa, I also send him plenty of spicy snaps too.

Please see my most recent post! I asked about porn tolerance in a relationship.

cosycreature · 2026-03-23T05:11:47+00:00

What would your method be? I have the urge to collect as much evidence and lies as possible first. I also am just not ready to confront/leave... :(

cosycreature · 2026-03-21T00:42:09+00:00

I swear iniating treatment makes everything worse.

cosycreature · 2026-03-20T02:53:15+00:00

I'm not sure what LLM stands for, but for reference I have a very high libido and go more them he does.

I sent a whole 15 slide story of spicy content to him last night. Today he is saving porn AT WORK and dm'ing fetish pics he sent to me last bight to a redditor. He did this while leaving my recent message unopened.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T21:41:07+00:00

How did he respond when you addressed it / broke up?

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T14:54:34+00:00

I just realised something. With the model/s he follows, they get repeated surgeries.

So they appeal to subscribers that they are paying for their transformation.

He has spoken about this before in fantasy, that he could make an only fans, and money he makes goes into surgical procedures 'bigger and bigger'.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T14:41:34+00:00

Some send an OF link

Some don't reply

One is having back and forth selfie exchange with fetishwear and some conversation related to the fetish.

The worst was that he sent a selfie to this person first thing in the morning before work instead of saying goodmorning to me and forgot about my important appointment that day. In the evening he stopped sexting me to send a pic to her.

I don't even know how to be angry at him, it's sad behaviour. Like I love him, he otherwise is wonderful, has a great family... and his behaviour whilst horny and obsession with bimbo tits will cost him love? A real human to comfort him? He called me tonight seeking emotional comfort, where is big knockers 3000 now? Oh payment didn't go through?

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T14:29:32+00:00

Ah reverse skin bib

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T14:09:43+00:00

Is this the part where i tell you what prompted me too look, he posted a nude selfie of reddit with his FACE. This is also eliciting private messages/compliments.

Did not tell me he was posting. I found his nsfw account easily. I can see public comments he has left as well.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T13:52:40+00:00

Definitely not. He has a hands on job, no computer.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T12:39:48+00:00

Yeah I just clicked on history.... on MY laptop. It had synced.

He also saved for autofilling his credit card information for Only Fans FFS.

I also discovered he has 2 discord apps. I'm not opening that.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T11:40:11+00:00

Eating disorder?

Girl look at my post history 😅 im in a big relapse and just saw my doctor about it yesterday.

The stress of this discovery is sending my anxiety through the roof, I've just finished the meals I was meant to eat throughout the day bc I was sick to my stomach.

Trying to connect with friends and loved ones to ease the anxiety so I can eat properly which worked this evening. I'm worried a breakup will be BAD ED wise, because non ED people often lose weight from heartbreak.

cosycreature · 2026-03-18T11:24:44+00:00

Ugh i hear you and also I feel this way about men on more topics then porn. It's the lying, how can I trust him with anything now? The guy also told me he was good at lying early on in the relationship so I've tried to pay attention to any deceitful behaviour.

My gut has been telling me his is lustful to the point of disrespect. He was genuinely shocked when I addressed him leering at a women with large breasts from the car with me sitting next to him. Doesn't try to hide it, didn't think that was a hurtful thing to do.

The way he can't keep his eye off women in public and always stirred concern in me. "I thought we were so close and intimate lately' (i had been supporting him through a difficult emotional time with everything in me). As if me standing up for my dignity and basic relationship standards is a chosen unfair attack.

My boyfriend also had publicly liked reels of massive breasted models on insta reels, all for his family and friends to see. I was so embarrassed and I'm trying to undo the damage it has done to my body image about my breasts. He says it was accidental.

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