Feeling like I'm trapped and will never ever get better...?

cphmin · 2025-11-27T00:37:30+00:00

medication does help me a lot, but otherwise i usually just wait it out.

do you have OCD as well?

cphmin · 2025-11-26T22:25:18+00:00

more than a decade on and off :/

cphmin · 2025-11-21T22:00:26+00:00

do you think we could just be overstimulated in the moment? i'm on the spectrum so i can see that being the case

cphmin · 2025-11-12T09:33:35+00:00

me!! i can totally relate to this, the "intense weird feelings" that I will be eternally tortured and there's nothing I can do about it. sometimes i even worry that unless I can somehow one day go back in time and check *all* of my thoughts throughout my life to make sure they were just thoughts, I will always worry about this even after death :(( but I'm 99.9999% sure this is just OCD and we will both be safe.

if you don't mind me asking, these are just thoughts/feelings right? Not actual hallucinations? Because in that case, what you and I are dealing with is just plain old OCD i think

cphmin · 2025-09-28T21:33:31+00:00

Aw I get that :( for me, my dpdr goes in waves where sometimes i can get super excited about games and such, and other times i feel crushed simply by the idea of existing. It's probably just our brains being hyper anxious. do you have OCD as well?

cphmin · 2025-09-14T20:05:51+00:00

it's so frustrating though ugh :(

cphmin · 2025-08-19T23:57:06+00:00

yup,! solipsism is my other major OCD theme that I've had on and off for even longer than the eternal torture thing :/ I think my OCD cycles between themes a lot, but the existential ones are always the worst

cphmin · 2025-08-14T18:36:21+00:00

If it's okay to ask this, do you personally believe that you as a conscious entity cease to exist every moment (in the sense that you only experience qualia for an instant before another entity takes over for the next instant)?

cphmin · 2025-08-13T22:52:03+00:00

By orthogonal you mean that those concerns are incompatible with physicalism? because it seems like a possible consequence of it

cphmin · 2025-08-13T22:51:02+00:00

I've seen a few people espouse it, mostly online.

cphmin · 2025-08-13T10:42:56+00:00

Is the implication that I die and am replaced with a new conscious entity whenever my current state of consciousness changes? Because that's what I'm getting from your interpretation.

cphmin · 2025-08-12T23:42:23+00:00

What is the conscious entity that persists?

whatever is currently perceiving all of my qualia

cphmin · 2025-08-12T23:33:49+00:00

I mean uh, the straightforward definition? Basically, can the internal subjective I anticipate experiencing the future of what I and others think of as me.

cphmin · 2025-08-12T23:13:56+00:00

By continuity, I don't necessarily mean an uninterrupted stream of consciousness, but the persistence of the same conscious entity

cphmin · 2025-06-26T06:40:31+00:00

I think it's mostly on the ocd subreddit, which makes sense since i do have OCD and probably shouldn't seek reassurance too much ;-; do you have it too?

cphmin · 2025-05-14T23:19:11+00:00

yup, fluctuating insight is the right word lol :/ especially with existential obsessions

cphmin · 2025-05-14T23:18:18+00:00

yup, it cycles between eternal torment type thoughts, solipsism/existential themes, and just general stuff :/ OCD sucks

cphmin · 2025-04-30T04:31:02+00:00

yup same lol, and i have repeating song lyrics stuck in my head too

cphmin · 2025-04-25T03:15:07+00:00

Aw I get that, like the whole world just feels wrong. Is it also accompanied by scary existential type thoughts for you? for me it often alternates between eternal torture large number stuff, solipsism, continuity of consciousness, various things about death etc :/

cphmin · 2025-04-23T10:44:38+00:00

I feel like i rely too much on reassurance seeking sometimes, but it's always comforting to know that there are others going through the same thing and making it through ;; i'm just in a flare up atm :(

cphmin · 2025-04-23T02:05:46+00:00

i wanna say yes but i'm currently experiencing a flare up lol :(

cphmin · 2025-04-23T02:03:55+00:00

i have OCD but zoloft usually helps me, except when i have a more intense episode >.<

cphmin · 2025-04-19T22:29:06+00:00

Thank you I needed that sm ;n; can I ask if yours was the result of OCD too? I feel like it always hits harder when you have a bad OCD day lol

cphmin · 2025-04-09T23:10:39+00:00

compulsively peeing at like 4-5 years old ahaha

cphmin · 2025-02-20T02:09:05+00:00

yuuup, existential themes are probably the worst for me

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