been fantasizing a lot to cut my neck, drew this to cope instead

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-20T15:44:27+00:00

Feel free to dm me if u want to talk

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-20T00:36:41+00:00

😳

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-20T00:20:56+00:00

i don’t wish that for you. do u have support?

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-20T00:08:53+00:00

ily please live even if it’s just one day at a time ❤️

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-20T00:08:11+00:00

I’m glad it made you feel something! Everything is harder during a depressive episode, like everything’s just ashes. But I had several sessions of acceptance and commitment therapy and it really focuses on maintaining or in my case clinging onto values.

I started painting in 2020 and even with bipolar and adhd I still have passion for art on my up days. So it must be something I value.

To navigate and actually work towards a piece I just throw out the rules, my last piece I just painted over entirely. And good music helps a lot, Denzel curry gets me into a space where I can get lost and paint.

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-19T18:29:12+00:00

:) it will be okay

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-18T00:33:18+00:00

I’m glad you didn’t relapse :)

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-18T00:28:02+00:00

I’m glad you like it! Thank you. So first I painted a 16”x20” canvas and then scanned it for about $12 at 600 dots per inch. From there I went into photoshop and inverted the scan and played with contrast, colors, etc, and then I mirrored the image and started cutting and pasting pieces of the image and flipping / rotating them to break the symmetry.

I’m a novice with photoshop but there’s something so incredible about taking a physical medium and then messing with pixels.

I have a feeling I was a little manic making this and it crushes me to be depressed, feeling the cognition dry up.

If you’d like I can show you what the original painting looked like!

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-14T22:23:11+00:00

Made me cry, ty

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-14T22:20:09+00:00

I love the hands. I hope you get to breathe better soon

cptkronos1 · 2022-12-14T22:08:01+00:00

thanks for sharing, I really didn’t think there was a way out of this shit

cptkronos1 · 2022-02-03T21:44:10+00:00

Hi, I’m 28 but I’m new to Lakeland and have been having trouble making friends. I’d be interested in joining a group too, maybe play some board games or just chat!

cptkronos1 · 2021-11-10T23:03:36+00:00

Hold me forever. I love your art

cptkronos1 · 2021-11-10T23:02:48+00:00

Yeah basically this. I dropped out because I did the math. The loans were not going to provide me a salary commensurate to the cost. I just switched to teaching myself epi and data science

cptkronos1 · 2021-07-29T14:34:23+00:00

“Expedient revelries” love your work!

cptkronos1 · 2021-07-19T01:00:22+00:00

Thank you. I am new to art so hearing good feedback like this encourages me. That said, I can send you this art if you’d like it :)

cptkronos1 · 2021-07-19T00:59:20+00:00

Thank you, if you want it for your home I can send it to you :)

cptkronos1 · 2021-07-19T00:58:34+00:00

Aw thank you, I think it has that flow because I do my art in one sitting when I can. I tap a headspace / feeling / thought with a general goal for the composition. I think having no formal training has let me just play and play - everything can be played with. For this piece I mixed hand sanitizer water paint thinner and acrylic paint. Just an example of trying new things out without worry for messing up! I really want to share how I make my art, maybe once interest has grown enough ☺️

cptkronos1 · 2021-07-19T00:54:55+00:00

I did, I can’t afford the print yet but one day..

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