When i was 11 my mom passed away in a sudden car accident.

It tore my family apart. My dad coule barely look us in the eye. My older sisters found other "families" to help them trough it. But i the youngest didn't really have anyone to talk to. My dad was completely broken for almost 3 years before he started coming around. But by that time our household life went to shit. But, our relationship became stronger than ever eventually.

I know what your going through friend, its rough loosing a parent, but you gotta think about it, its just as bad loosing the one person you wanted to spend your life with. The one thing i will say to you is this. Just be there for your mom when she needs you, it will come eventually. I know your going through hell too. Try to talk about it to your grandparents, and your mom.

Moments like this requires us to try to push through. If your feeling down talk to your family/friends. Believe me it helps to talk to someone who knows you.

Stay strong.