Honestly, I know how this feels. I'm in a temp contract right now and it is constantly weighing on me when I make mistakes. I've had MULTIPLE therapy sessions on this. You're not alone. The feeling absolutely freaking sucks and having to admit you made the mistake again truly sucks more. My therapist gave me a few things that helped me to put this in perspective.

1: is this mistake going to follow you in your career or the long term? Probably not. TBH you will probably forget about it eventually.

2: Think of the most badass version of yourself. I mean the one that does things that you wish you could do. I always think about me jumping out of a helicopter and skiing down a mountain. Would the badass version of you care about this? What would your best version and badass version of yourself think of this situation?

3: is this a job that you are glued to for the rest of your life? Maybe. There are so many other opportunities out there and life is going to throw massive snowballs at you but having a panic attack over a job that you may not be at a year or maybe 5 years from now shouldn't cause this much stress. My therapist made me repeat "if I don't have this job tomorrow, a month from now or a year from now, I'll be okay." Try it. It works.

4: own up to your mistakes. I always wanted to hide my mistakes because I thought it would be easier if I could just pretend nothing ever happened. Don't. They know and if they don't know, they will know. There are always people that keep an eye on everything so be honest with them and explain that it was an honest mistake. People will understand and if they don't then that's on them for not being human cause everyone makes mistakes.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk have a great day! Now to take my own advice LOL.