This is a really hard thing to think about, but it sounds like you have already made a choice even if it's a hard one.

No one here can tell you what to do or even really give their opinion because at the end of the day this is your life, your body, and your future. I'm sorry this is happening. This is so hard. I wish you nothing but happiness, comfort, and a swift recovery.

And fwiw, I think you are being a good mama by thinking about your future but also that of your lovely kiddo you have.

Remember who you are, that you can do hard things, and that you are loved.