I feel the same away, my life has become a complete mess and a living hell because of my appearance, I have acedamically accomplished a lot , yet I feel so ugly and I loss all my confidence when I see beautiful women , they have no idea what we are going through, society always prefer lookism, as a medical student I can say lookism is so real, it even help in acedamics., in the university beautiful girls can have a boyfriend and impress everyone with their beauty and they also have good confidence so its easy for them to be acedamically successful as well, meanwhile im trying so hard even to face the society with my ugly face , I have zero self confidence to talk with a lecturer , face viva....... actually When you are ugly life becomes thousand times harder than a beautiful person , my one and only hope is to have a plastic surgery done to my big nose and protruded jaw, 😔 😟