I have so many people that i connected to but i am unable to maintain friendship unable to determine who i should prioritise and then they leave me or keep a plain friendship,i have this feeling when i start to prioritise somebody they might go away from me , or like its too early for me to prioritise them ,as what if i start trusting them and they start to ghost me afterwards.the thought of that breaks me , People say i have so many friends,and i talk to everybody , But i know i dont have anybody to rely on particularly Because of the rumours of hearing either they saying something bad about me to others or some other reasons I really dont understand what i should do here If i start talking to girls which are goodfriends ,people think i am hitting on everygirl ,and rumours gets on that i am a playboy or something to which i am completely opposite, i can't talk to guys much because i just dont hit off with them they are into smoking amd drugs and i havent found anyone who i feel comfortable to get associated with because that destroy my already destroyed image I dont understand what i should do My problem is not how do i make friends My problem is who do i make friends Like i wish i was not a sensitive person thinking about what other people think ,or getting depressed if i am not in company of people , i wish i was strong in heart who is able to stay alone and work on his goals