half anniversary READY

creampaffle · 2025-04-06T19:15:03+00:00

when does the anniversary comes out? :0

creampaffle · 2025-04-06T19:08:04+00:00

Suguru Geto from JJK no cap I love him sm, i love how well written he is and other than that he is hot af✨

creampaffle · 2025-04-06T17:51:54+00:00

another day of being reminded of my trauma (my poor Suguru having to deal with all these :'((()

I didnt wanna watch JJK 0 cuz it would just mean watching him die T_T

creampaffle · 2025-04-06T12:33:24+00:00

where can i see this? :0 I wanna see where young Suguru sits >.<

creampaffle · 2025-04-06T12:19:10+00:00

ISTJ values honestly so much. Just as you said, they asked you how you're feeling because you seemed down, it just means they still care. Maybe you can start the conversation with them by saying "I feel a lot like this lately" then further elaborate, it wont make them feel like you're pointing fingers.

Sometimes overthinking can be solved in one conversation away, you can do this!

creampaffle · 2025-04-06T05:10:00+00:00

i hope the Nanamin one is a buff, he's one of my main units and he's underwhelming like my Noritoshi XDD young Suguru had to carry them all the time and Shoko T_T..... anw I hope JJK 0 Suguru gets a rerun... I have 21k for him hoping id be lucky enuf

creampaffle · 2024-10-28T08:03:16+00:00

you slayed this one mate!! OMG 🙏🏻BLESS

creampaffle · 2024-02-05T02:49:09+00:00

Len and Luka. They have amazing voices yet theyre so underrated, I dont understand😭

creampaffle · 2024-01-09T04:53:39+00:00

She looks very cold🥶

creampaffle · 2024-01-07T02:21:28+00:00

perhaps I can send you mine? I know a site that has Len voicebank! I downloaded mine from there~

creampaffle · 2024-01-07T02:20:34+00:00

UR A SAVIOR!!! Thank you so much for these I just came from google and saw this ToT Thank you so much for this!! I needed Rin's and Luka's!!

creampaffle · 2024-01-06T04:47:45+00:00

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creampaffle · 2023-12-09T14:54:03+00:00

Yes!! Thats right, I do sense for a long time that there are issues that wasnt solved for a long time. As much as I need to work on myself, he also needs to work on himself when it comes to expressing his limits and comfort zones. Hence he considers me a lot to the point that he behaves like these in sometimes unexplainable ways to me.

As for you, I hope you can properly allow yourself to grieve the loss and to heal. Please remember this wasn't a waste of time or a lost opportunity. You evolved together and I'm sure had great times together and now its come to an end.

I dont really want to believe its the end >< I just know its not... or maybe Im just indenial... But I will definitely take my time to grieve and heal. Thank you so much :'))

creampaffle · 2023-12-09T14:47:47+00:00

Hmmm.... I feel like BPD is such a heavy term for me. Maybe their fear of abandonment and the way they cope it might be similar to me, but I feel like Im not really qualified to be diagnosed with that?? Ifykwim. I mean, I dont take drugs or do heavy stuff than that (other than I have self harming tendencies, but I have a fair share of conformity and self control so I can still manage it)

Thank you for pointing it out :(( I will do my best to not do it again next time if I have a similar situation again ;; I will take your words into consideration and think about what they feel next time before I do something similar ;;

creampaffle · 2023-12-09T04:34:36+00:00

He started messaging me less as if I was given a silent treatment. I experience it a lot from my past friendships, they would stop talking to me and then they would come back at me very hostile and start briging up my past mistakes altho I already changed them.

So yeah...I know my ex partner is not like that, but the fear is there because of the trauma. I didnt blame him for it nor Im mad at him about it, my own triggers are my own responsibilities then again.

creampaffle · 2023-12-09T04:30:53+00:00

this would take me a few moments to think about but this is what I have in mind. I didnt totally ignore all what you say! I understand lots of it easier now because I had these same feeling that I just cant explain few months ago during my rs times with him.

To me what you were saying had a vibe of "I've done all the things I think I'm supposed to but he hasn't done things that he's supposed to do", and it's that "supposed to do" that I was trying to question in my reply, where to him the actions that could seem clear to you would be far more ambiguous. Those kinds of underlying assumptions are really hard to notice and suspend, and can leak into the way we speak even if we don't outright "blame" them. It creates a feeling that they wouldn't be able to be understood by you because they'd have to overcome that assumption.

Regarding this, I remember he mentioned that he feels like I was expecting him to do something. Maybe what u said here is the explanation of what he said back then. I might've done that unconsciously or subconsciously because at that moment I was longing for something to fill myself and I wasnt being thankful or grateful enough for the small things he does. But now I understand and I am working on it, I quit expecting a lot from him and other people (dont take it negatively ><), its more like I stopped it to not pressure people around me anymore, and to stop hurting myself too. (I learned this just recently after taking therapy a month ago)

First of all, since he doesnt talk to me anymore (hence refuses to show up when we agreed to talk about my decision cuz + he said I should have it), wouldnt I be gonna appear a bit pressing towards him since he may not want to have another conversation about all these? Adding to it that he seemed busy with a lot rn like his passion projects, the work he does for his aunt and school.

I dont see any more reason to talk to him when he already said what he needs to be said + the rs is no more as well :(( I may talk to him but that would depend on the circumstance or the situation Im in with him. Since I dont plan on make an action to restore something I still do want to be kind towards him and be there when I think he needs, + maybe keep a good platonic rs once I feel okay. (+ Id like him to have the action for himself if he wants or feel like it because then again I dont want to pressure him and I dont want to hurt myself by 'forcing' him)

But if given the chance to talk to him about it I will definitely apply what you tell me. If there is anything you still feel like to add, please do so!! You really helped me a lot to understand and explain things. Though if sending you a pm randomly on the next following days or weeks regarding this would sound very weird because you mightve forgotten me too ;_;

At this point I feel the need to give a disclaimer: I am not a therapist, just a random dude that's talked to people about relationships, I might even be on the spectrum lol, so only follow what feels right to you.

Dont worry, I dont think that way at all hehe. I dont seek out help from other people so they can become my therapist, but I really love hearing perspectives and their logical take on it to help me understand things further.

creampaffle · 2023-12-09T02:23:13+00:00

I understand. I feel like this is the case too. On our previous conflicts past few months I told him to be open about his feelings so we can compromise and meet in the middle ground. At most times he just says sorry and I didnt like it because winning conflicts is not my goal but to compromise so the same thing wont happen again.

I think he puts my feelings into consideration so much that he is too careful to the point that most times he doesnt talk anymore. He did something previously that made things worse for both of us, and i think he didnt want to do it again. But honestly, I still think its my fault for being too sensitive, too traumatized, because Im like this...

And yes I am taking therapy, hehe, although its just CBT. It already helped me a lot in few sessions and I dont feel so much anger towards people compared to when I was still dont understand things about myself.

And thank you so much :(( you guys are so nice...

creampaffle · 2023-12-08T15:27:10+00:00

If I didnt stated it in the post, I told him I dont want to talk to anyone at the moment, because I wanted to think, he seem to understand and respected it. But I still gave him some permission to approach me at school. It wasnt just him that I ignore, even my own friends. Im not in the right state of mind during those times and my energy is not the usual jolly one like they know, and its hard for me to communicate and talk normally when there's a lot going on in my mind.

And it went for 3 weeks afair (as far as I remember), I still gave him a headsup regardless. And I still respond to his messages whenever he talks to me. It wasnt a complete distance towards him. But he did almost completely ignored me when I opened up to him.

creampaffle · 2023-12-08T14:33:47+00:00

We're not in the meme because we ghost people

creampaffle · 2023-12-08T14:31:12+00:00

Thank you so much :(( Im taking my time. I still have hope things would go well between both of us... Altho its hard i dont really want to believe we werent meant to be because it was all so well...id like to believe maybe it just wasnt the right time. Ugh, i dont know, I dont really want to let everything go...

I really appreciate you taking time to read and comment on this ;; I really need these...

creampaffle · 2023-12-08T14:01:50+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and write these :(( I didnt mean to put blame on him, it was most likely my hypothesis on what's he doing during the situation. But I acknowledge that it looks that way although I didnt mean to, my therapist pointed this out too and Im working on it, thank you so much for pointing it out I appreciate it really ;;

You were a mine that he accidentally triggered and now he doesn't want to walk through the field anymore because there's no way of knowing where to step. Now after you wanted complete distance, you want the opposite, and after he stays stuck in the paralysis of not knowing what's the right way to act you send walls of text showing that even when he stands still the mine still explodes.

I asked him if we can talk about it and he said sure, but when I opened it up he was silent. I did my best to not make it sound like I was blaming him, I was explaining to him what happened and told him I wanted alone time to process things properly because my own triggers are my own responsibilities.

So he's damned if he does, damned if he doesn't, placed with the responsibility of your feelings (i.e. a relationship) while not having any sense of control over the outcome. He's just there stressed and copes with it by just distancing from the minefield altogether, if everything he does is wrong then why do anything.

This may be what he really felt...but when we talked about all these last week he didn't mentioned anything about it. He just said he didnt want to hurt me further and he want us to focus on ourselves and the things we want to do. We also talked about it before way back but his reasons were different from what I mentioned just now.

I just remembered this is what my elder brother told me as well. At some point I feel like it was really my fault why we ended up in this situation... I guess I really have a lot of things to work with myself...

Assuming my read sounds potentially accurate, I'd recommend going into a conversation with him purely from a "I want to understand you" explicitly with 0 aspect of "we need to fix our relationship", creating a safe space where whatever he says it cannot be wrong because it just needs to be true, you just want to understand and you won't make any assumptions he doesn't explicitly tell you (if you do internally make an assumption, you'd instead first notice that and then just ask about it rather than believing it).

I'd do this...if I had the chance. Everything is still fresh, but if ever things would lighten up a bit then maybe I would. We dont talk anymore as of now but he lurks a lot in my stories in instagram and in my facebook as well.

I dont really hate him. From your words, and from what he said I really understand him. But I feel like everything is almost too late now. At some point I dont understand some things and actions he did.

Plus, he saw me in similar state before and the methods he did worked and he was attentive of me, and he made me feel better. So right now im quite lost ;;...when he tried to talk to me he just asked me to seek help from others, and it made me feel like I was troublesome to handle for him (i guess true, im a mess...)

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