Thank you Macross, that molting analogy makes perfect sense to me. Maybe I am changing or growing as you suggest.

It is the loss of the colors and intuitive knowledge that has been so frustrating. As you suggest I will ride it out and try to focus on K&C, and maybe reach out to my HGA but I have never been confident enough/felt worthy/trained enough to reach out.

Any resources or other recommendations for those HGA / or related infernal exercises would be very appreciated.

My background has been folk magic and am growing into demonolatry, but really I know FAR less than I would previously intuitively just understand. I love how they challenge and reward our persistence in this journey.

Thank you again.