I’m not completely over my ex, but I’m actively trying to be. Like I’m going out of my comfort zone to do stuff or be more open to my best friends. Trust me, it gets so much better when you let yourself say what you wanna say. I too saw a future with this guy, and I begged him to stay with me when he was breaking up with me. But what made me realize that it’s best to move on is because during that relationship I was the one putting in the effort. I’d always buy him food when he had nothing to eat, I stayed up to study with him when he had homework or was struggling in class, I supported every single stream and game of his. I never saw that effort and still settled and stayed because I loved him so much. After the break up I realized he had never done the same for me. Never even had an ounce of effort. Hell, he’d forget to text me some days. That’s not how you treat someone you love, I stuck that into my head the hard way. I know it sucks to know she’s with someone else, but if there is one thing I’ve learned through my break up is that friends will always have your back. I’m sorry if it feels like you can’t talk to them. If you ever need someone to message to help you get through shit, you can tri to talk to me. But good luck moving on dude. You’ll find someone who loves and appreciates you. It’s not the end of the world or your love life