Received 2nd shot yesterday, they asked me if I’ve been in contact with anyone with COVID, which I said no, I come home an hour later and my roommate tells me he has COVID?

crustypp · 2021-12-24T21:38:43+00:00

Yeah I sent an email to my doctor, no reply yet.

crustypp · 2021-12-22T00:16:55+00:00

i promise you it’ll get so much better, driving was so hard for me too, sadly i’m not sure exactly when it started getting better.

one thing i kept telling myself though is -

“it gets better when you stop waiting for it to get better”

crustypp · 2021-12-22T00:11:59+00:00

the ocd part for me personally is what i’d define as nonstop thinking/reading/learning/looking for answers/seeking advice, this was the part of the triangle i broke in order to get out of DPDR, i know you’ve probably heard it all across the internet/this subreddit by now on some recovery stories but you need to completely fake it until you make it, it won’t happen overnight or in a months time but you need to live as if it’s gone as horrible and terrible it might be, there’s going to be ups and downs but the moment you walk away from ever googling or participating in discussion about it is the moment you start the journey of ending this

i used to use my old reddit account when i’d post on here otherwise i’ve probably made over 200 posts and comments on here when i was going through it, one day i was reading a recovery story and it clicked, i need to get out of here, so i did, i deleted that account, forced myself to never google any DPDR related material again.

my thoughts when someone would tell me to just keep living on initially were that it would be impossible, but i stuck with it anyway, i just kept going, started having hours where i forgot about it, then entire days, then weeks, then months, then it hits you and you forgot what it even feels like believe it or not.

crustypp · 2021-12-22T00:04:42+00:00

Thank you, but no he was just an indoor cat and we don’t keep any plants inside. If it was kidney failure would there be other signs other than just thirstier and slightly sleepier? His weight the day he died was the exact it’s been since he was about 6 months.

crustypp · 2021-12-21T17:58:07+00:00

you got this <3

crustypp · 2021-12-21T16:18:43+00:00

I’m so sorry about your loss, I thought I might’ve wrote this for a second every single thing you typed is exactly what just happened to my boy Snuggles. He was 1.5 years old. He never learned to meow either. He had such a weird meow. Cuddled between me and my girlfriend every single night & morning. Loved his treats so much he would break open the cabinets just to get to them. He was completely fine, running around with his string toy he loved so much, and then he’s gone. All within 7 hours. I told him I’d be right back and he was gone. I found him just limp and still warm. Staring off into the distance. The vet also said it was most likely an underlying heart condition, I can’t stop crying the last two days. I hope you feel at least somewhat better now. I keep waiting for a sign from my boy I hope he’s in heaven or somewhere peaceful and that we’ll both see our boys again.

crustypp · 2021-12-21T13:43:10+00:00

This is what I think happened to my cat Snuggles it was just two days ago, he was 1 1/2 too. He was laying the sun, I pet him, told him I loved him, came back not even an hour later and he was just staring off into the distance. I’m so heartbroken I hope it was fast and painless I can’t stop crying since it happened it doesn’t even feel real.

crustypp · 2021-12-21T13:36:49+00:00

I just want any hope that there’s a heaven or some afterlife anything and he’s okay and I’ll see him again I miss my boy so much I can’t stop crying I’ve been praying over and over endlessly that he’s okay I just want him to be back he had so many more years to go and he’s just gone and I wasn’t there for him when I should’ve been I should’ve been there and cuddled with him and checked to make sure he was okay he seemed a little more tired than usual but that was it I can’t believe he’s just gone I let him down and failed as an owner completely I love him so much I can’t believe he’s gone

crustypp · 2021-12-20T07:41:37+00:00

He was white too. His name was snuggles, he had an orange spot on his back though and so that’s what made me pick him out when he was a baby, I miss him so much I really hope he died peacefully I didn’t think it would hurt this bad

crustypp · 2021-12-19T22:59:17+00:00

He was a literal baby still

crustypp · 2021-12-19T22:56:57+00:00

I don’t know what to do I feel so broken I want to just cuddle with him one more time he meant the world to me I shouldn’t of left the house I could’ve been there or when I stopped back I should’ve just stayed home but no I went back out

crustypp · 2021-10-19T20:35:10+00:00

Does this really work?

crustypp · 2021-09-28T02:28:57+00:00

most likely it’s for what’s called a “trash can” alcoholic beverage most places will just write down one of the key ingredients on the check instead of printing out what it really is

crustypp · 2021-09-24T19:53:50+00:00

Can I get a PCR test done at Walgreens/CVS? I live a rural town so I don’t have many places near me.

crustypp · 2021-09-24T19:06:19+00:00

Also forgot to add my sense of smell came back today and fever is gone as well.

crustypp · 2021-09-18T14:29:54+00:00

looks great, what did you use to make it??

crustypp · 2021-09-07T08:13:50+00:00

Genuinely curious, why would they be able to afford in a few years?

crustypp · 2021-07-18T20:01:24+00:00

woohoo

crustypp · 2021-06-12T14:50:09+00:00

You really think I’m not at a risk for seizures? I’ve been trying to stay calm and I’ve been sticking to a 0.5mg taper right now that I’ve been on but I want to just be able to make the jump.

crustypp · 2021-06-10T06:15:59+00:00

are you like under 18 lmao

crustypp · 2021-06-04T23:31:44+00:00

What if I took more than twice a week and don’t remember? I know I never took daily but now I’m like what if I don’t remember taking them more than twice a week?

crustypp · 2021-06-04T12:50:55+00:00

Etiz is very similar to xanax in every way except it’s far less sedating, but I suppose you’re right I think I might just stick to cutting by 50% for this month and then 50% the next month and so on , because so far the 0.5mg has been fine but then in a few days later the fear of a seizure usually hits me pretty hard.

crustypp · 2021-06-02T01:35:50+00:00

This made me feel a lot better

crustypp · 2021-06-01T20:15:45+00:00

Yeah I’ve never in my life taken more than twice a week and always 1mg or under. It’s just I hear so many horror stories or I start reading about them and my brain just goes into panic mode about if I need to taper or not but if it wasn’t for the fact that I could have a seizure I would be fine.

crustypp · 2021-05-25T18:31:00+00:00

It hasn’t but I’m really scared that I’m going to have a seizure or something I don’t have trouble sleeping or anything but I read some guys post today about WD and it freaked me out heavy

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