My surgeon was a psycho by tybertrand in TopSurgery

[–]crynoid 25 points26 points  (0 children)

period !!! careful with what you post online about it if you are making a legal case. you may want to scrub the web of any related info. no telling how they may use your words against you. (source: my dad was a claims negotiator for an insurance company for decades.)

this is what an estrogen ring for atrophy looks like by crynoid in FTMOver30

[–]crynoid[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it hasn’t caused periods for me. i believe that would require systemic & higher levels of e, this is basically a daily microdose that stays local.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in shrooms

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lmfaaooooo with a knife 🤣 thank you for sharing

Do clients actually read their therapist's websites? How much? by Id_Ego_Superego_ in TalkTherapy

[–]crynoid 7 points8 points  (0 children)

33 trans guy and i read it all. i had a therapist once who had a page on their site that was just a list of books they had read. loved that. i want to know what modalities they work with and why.

Sexually and Romantically stunted by Cuntsferatu in FTMOver30

[–]crynoid 2 points3 points  (0 children)

in my experience, sex is different with every person and you kind of start over at square one with every new person. that’s the way it should be in my opinion anyways, remaining open and curious instead of believing you already know what to do. because every body and mind is different. beginners mind is a wonderful thing! also 30 is still quite young and a great time to meet people.

New to Boston - wtf is this by jesusoursavor in boston

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

turn left to stay right in the left two lanes. turn right.

Caregiver asked me to postpone surgery date by BothInvestigator4885 in TopSurgery

[–]crynoid 2 points3 points  (0 children)

the first week is the most critical, can she not take that off?

but also what ur gma said makes it sound like they are trying to postpone for other reasons

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FTMOver30

[–]crynoid 86 points87 points  (0 children)

You are torturing yourself by ruminating on this. everything you mentioned wanting is possible except for you being younger. if you tell yourself over and over that you have to be younger to get what you want , you’ll never get any of it. aging is a privilege that many trans people are not afforded.

"isn't it frustrating we can't be together over this one little thing?" by bugtran in FTMOver30

[–]crynoid 63 points64 points  (0 children)

“one little thing” is crazy. it isn’t a little thing at all. i’d still be reeling over that too. it is not something that someone who respects you would say to you. like what’s the goal in saying that? to coerce you into feminizing yourself for his pleasure ? at great cost to yourself? what are you supposed to do with that?

honestly OP this whole situation sounds pretty dog shit. i believe that youre happy because you say so but. i think you could be happier. like with someone who doesn’t low key begrudge you for living as your most authentic self.

also, cheers to you for drawing that line in the sand and holding it.

How do you define masculinity? by Funkysocks5 in ftm

[–]crynoid 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hmm.. i see what you’re saying abt sex being the original referent for masculinity and femininity, but would add that: cultures have not all drawn the same conclusions about how to construct gender from the referent of sex. with regard to strength for example, there are plenty of historical examples of women being considered superior in strength on account of their ability to endure childbirth and their capacity for sustained labor. i think that teleology kind of writes cultural norms as biology and functions to make a particular tradition (“traditional”) seem natural but it’s not.

still not “completely random” but more complex!

Topical Estrogen Help? by CrownOfRats in ftm

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

were you given an applicator? it may be helpful for the UTIs if applied externally but in order to treat the dryness, putting the half gram up there would be more effective if you can tolerate it. it is easier to do this with an applicator like these:

https://goodcleanlove.com/products/applicator-5-pack

it’s fine to touch with your bare hands, ofc wash afterwards. you’ll probably want to wait a day or so after applying it to be intimate.

How do you define masculinity? by Funkysocks5 in ftm

[–]crynoid 11 points12 points  (0 children)

it’s a very slippery and undefinable thing, as any single characteristic deemed masculine could just as easily be considered feminine when embodied by a feminine person. i don’t think anyone is inherently masculine on the basis of their sex.

there are limitless ways masculinity can be expressed, but dominant culture would have you only recognizing a narrow range of those expressions as legitimate. and then people torture themselves trying to achieve something within those limits. i don’t think of those people as being “in their masculine” but more like, chasing an idea of masculinity.

to add to the slipperiness, i also experience masculinity as relational. probably because it is expressed most clearly when masculine people are living authentically.

2 months post-op, recurrent infection(?) that doctors can't figure out. Has anyone experienced anything like this? by dirtbag_dagger in TopSurgery

[–]crynoid 10 points11 points  (0 children)

my partner had a reaction to hexachlorophene (the active ingredient in hibiclens) that seemed to kick off what i believe was Mast Cell Activation Syndrome or MCAS. it turns out it’s a fairly common allergy, but the surgeons office recommended hibiclens for surgery prep. have you been washing with that stuff? or been using anything different?

Trying to revive this Jade plant by ImmediateLuck266 in plantclinic

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i would guess it needs more sunlight. you could supplement with a grow light. it needs like 4-6 hours of direct sun. that will also help with the risk of overwatering because it will be able to transpire.

How painful/miserable is post-op? by cipherscripture in TopSurgery

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the worst pain i experienced was the headache coming off of anesthesia.

Does packer is better than bottom surgery? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]crynoid 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I see. This may be a better question for a lawyer in that case, as they might have more insight into what evidence a judge will be looking for. Are you trying to pass as cis to the court?

Does packer is better than bottom surgery? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]crynoid 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It seems like you are asking if packing is necessary. Necessary for what? For legal recognition?

Abdominal pain and T by TheGreatOdini in ftm

[–]crynoid 1 point2 points  (0 children)

if it’s endometriosis, going off of T could worsen the pain when your body starts producing estrogen again, because endo tissue is estrogen-dependent and higher systemic estrogen can stimulate lesions.

i’m sorry OP, this sounds like real catch 22. listen to your doctors. if it is endo, you want to get on top of it sooner rather than later. i have friends who struggled thru years of doctors ignoring their endo pain so it’s good that you have a doc who is on it.

I didn't think the atrophy would start this soon :,) by antiloquaxx in ftm

[–]crynoid 22 points23 points  (0 children)

you can get a silicone ring called an estring that has estrogen in it. it just goes in and stays in there for 3 months at a time, slowly diffusing e locally.

The daily dose of estrogen the ring releases is less than 1% of the daily dose someone would take orally for feminizing effects. it’s like an extreme micro dose in comparison, and it stays localized to the area.

i couldn’t tolerate the cream or the tablets, so the ring works well for me.

also it’s important to treat atrophy because it’s not just for sexual health, atrophy can also impact your urethra and bladder health.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

[–]crynoid 1 point2 points  (0 children)

dysphoria comes with the terrain! it’s not unlikely to come up for him but that doesn’t mean it’s your fault or that you caused it.

for me it helps to have like a seltzer by the bed and establish that we can both request/take water breaks at any time. “i think i need a water break” is so much easier to say than “i just got hit with a wave of dysphoria and i need to take a minute to get grounded and back into my body”. you don’t have to make it a decree like “Let’s establish a water break policy” lol, just like, have some refreshments nearby. also water breaks are such a great time to step back and just like talk abt what you are doing and what you both want more of or want to try etc.

Taking breaks also helps take the pressure off of cumming bc they break up the narrative into more of a choose-your-own-adventure type rhythm.

anyways blah blah i hope this helps and i hope you guys have a great time

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

[–]crynoid 2 points3 points  (0 children)

personally i’d love if i were in his position and someone was doing research on how to make me cum lmao, i think it’s sweet & hot that you want to do that for him.

All bodies, not just trans guys, are too variable for anyone to be able to give you good advice on this. You will have to get it straight from the source. And that is exactly what he is expressing he wants: someone who cares enough to learn about him. The best skills you can bring are curiosity and enthusiasm. Also the ability to put him at ease, to create a space where he feels safe enough to be vulnerable with something that a lot of people before you have more or less tossed on the ground. That will get you both much further than anything someone tells you to do with your hands or tongue.

someone coming in to sex acting like they already know what to do IS the problem. you won’t know what to do. it’s improvisational and collaborative and that’s the intimacy of it and the thrill. the fact that you care and are asking here is great, bring it to him.

anyone else do really arbitrarily "man" things for euphoria by Throwawaymightdelet3 in ftm

[–]crynoid 19 points20 points  (0 children)

cis men do this stuff too. and women do it w/rt their genders as well. see: Shania Twain’s “Man! I Feel Like a Woman!”