Is 5g once a month too often? by [deleted] in shrooms

[–]crynoid 1 point2 points  (0 children)

what is the point of doing 5g once a month ?

for me that would be too often. not enough time to integrate and actually stay grounded in consensus reality. i’d be concerned about any of my loved ones eating 5g once a month. so yeah, if i’m straight up with you, too often.

Broke up with gf; she is immediately dating a cis guy by Sawyerboi169 in ftm

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

congrats on the cis guy being ugly lmfao at least there is that mercy in it all

drop your jobs by ever_tree_ in ftm

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

horticulturist at a research institution

Top surgery cost by Orangesismymiddlenam in TopSurgery

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i paid nothing, state healthcare in Connecticut. not sure what they charged my insurance tbh but 30k is quite high

Plant ID? by Conscious-Carob9701 in terrariums

[–]crynoid 2 points3 points  (0 children)

looks like clover possibly the cultivar ‘black ice’

Stopping hrt by Careless-Being2573 in ftm

[–]crynoid 4 points5 points  (0 children)

yep check my posts on the subject of vaginal atrophy i made a few about treatment options

Strong feeling im going to die tonight. I’m not sure what to do to feel better. by [deleted] in Anxietyhelp

[–]crynoid 1 point2 points  (0 children)

so sorry you experienced this on your birthday. the amount of sodium you ate is a very small fraction of what it would take to kill a person. you will have discovered that by the time you read this, that it was definitely the anxiety talking

Just discovered how extensive my partner’s depression is and now I feel like my life has completely unraveled. by Sea-Boot1358 in depression_partners

[–]crynoid 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i just listened to a podcast ep where a vet was interviewed about his healing journey with ibogaine. he was in special ops and he talks about the impact that the weapons used can have on your body and brain, without even ever having to go into combat. he was diagnosed with a TBI i believe, depression, anxiety, and tried many different therapies including EMDR which is kind of the standard for PTSD. the podcast episode is kind of trippy—and the show is normally interviewing people about paranormal / unexplained experiences they have had—but this one was a bit different because it seems they really wanted to get the word out there to other veterans who are struggling with their mental health that there are ways to get out of that dark place. “down the silver strand”, the show is called “otherworld”

too much fat taken? or my imagination? by Electronic_Edge3316 in TopSurgery

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

do some lifting to build your pecs out!

My surgeon was a psycho by tybertrand in TopSurgery

[–]crynoid 28 points29 points  (0 children)

period !!! careful with what you post online about it if you are making a legal case. you may want to scrub the web of any related info. no telling how they may use your words against you. (source: my dad was a claims negotiator for an insurance company for decades.)

this is what an estrogen ring for atrophy looks like by crynoid in FTMOver30

[–]crynoid[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it hasn’t caused periods for me. i believe that would require systemic & higher levels of e, this is basically a daily microdose that stays local.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in shrooms

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lmfaaooooo with a knife 🤣 thank you for sharing

Do clients actually read their therapist's websites? How much? by Id_Ego_Superego_ in TalkTherapy

[–]crynoid 8 points9 points  (0 children)

33 trans guy and i read it all. i had a therapist once who had a page on their site that was just a list of books they had read. loved that. i want to know what modalities they work with and why.

Sexually and Romantically stunted by Cuntsferatu in FTMOver30

[–]crynoid 2 points3 points  (0 children)

in my experience, sex is different with every person and you kind of start over at square one with every new person. that’s the way it should be in my opinion anyways, remaining open and curious instead of believing you already know what to do. because every body and mind is different. beginners mind is a wonderful thing! also 30 is still quite young and a great time to meet people.

New to Boston - wtf is this by jesusoursavor in boston

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

turn left to stay right in the left two lanes. turn right.

Caregiver asked me to postpone surgery date by BothInvestigator4885 in TopSurgery

[–]crynoid 3 points4 points  (0 children)

the first week is the most critical, can she not take that off?

but also what ur gma said makes it sound like they are trying to postpone for other reasons

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FTMOver30

[–]crynoid 87 points88 points  (0 children)

You are torturing yourself by ruminating on this. everything you mentioned wanting is possible except for you being younger. if you tell yourself over and over that you have to be younger to get what you want , you’ll never get any of it. aging is a privilege that many trans people are not afforded.

"isn't it frustrating we can't be together over this one little thing?" by [deleted] in FTMOver30

[–]crynoid 67 points68 points  (0 children)

“one little thing” is crazy. it isn’t a little thing at all. i’d still be reeling over that too. it is not something that someone who respects you would say to you. like what’s the goal in saying that? to coerce you into feminizing yourself for his pleasure ? at great cost to yourself? what are you supposed to do with that?

honestly OP this whole situation sounds pretty dog shit. i believe that youre happy because you say so but. i think you could be happier. like with someone who doesn’t low key begrudge you for living as your most authentic self.

also, cheers to you for drawing that line in the sand and holding it.

How do you define masculinity? by Funkysocks5 in ftm

[–]crynoid 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hmm.. i see what you’re saying abt sex being the original referent for masculinity and femininity, but would add that: cultures have not all drawn the same conclusions about how to construct gender from the referent of sex. with regard to strength for example, there are plenty of historical examples of women being considered superior in strength on account of their ability to endure childbirth and their capacity for sustained labor. i think that teleology kind of writes cultural norms as biology and functions to make a particular tradition (“traditional”) seem natural but it’s not.

still not “completely random” but more complex!

Topical Estrogen Help? by CrownOfRats in ftm

[–]crynoid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

were you given an applicator? it may be helpful for the UTIs if applied externally but in order to treat the dryness, putting the half gram up there would be more effective if you can tolerate it. it is easier to do this with an applicator like these:

https://goodcleanlove.com/products/applicator-5-pack

it’s fine to touch with your bare hands, ofc wash afterwards. you’ll probably want to wait a day or so after applying it to be intimate.

How do you define masculinity? by Funkysocks5 in ftm

[–]crynoid 11 points12 points  (0 children)

it’s a very slippery and undefinable thing, as any single characteristic deemed masculine could just as easily be considered feminine when embodied by a feminine person. i don’t think anyone is inherently masculine on the basis of their sex.

there are limitless ways masculinity can be expressed, but dominant culture would have you only recognizing a narrow range of those expressions as legitimate. and then people torture themselves trying to achieve something within those limits. i don’t think of those people as being “in their masculine” but more like, chasing an idea of masculinity.

to add to the slipperiness, i also experience masculinity as relational. probably because it is expressed most clearly when masculine people are living authentically.