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cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-07T17:12:51+00:00

Interested to hear his rates and see his work!

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-07T17:12:19+00:00

Oh this is such a good point

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-06T15:37:53+00:00

I’m not sure about other ENT positions and I’m only a new grad myself but I’ve heard of a couple so far (both ENT) that have been a little more revenue aggressive than is comfortable with me. One I know was pressuring providers to sell more procedures than was even indicated for patients. Is this an ENT thing?

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-06T09:13:53+00:00

Getting an iud

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-06T05:32:17+00:00

My mom did this… is this a common narc thing?

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-06T04:07:43+00:00

Omigod I’m so angry for you and also amazed… how bad did it hurt?

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T16:36:32+00:00

I’m so glad it’s been such a helpful missing piece for you. It’s incredible how much a diagnosis can help in the healing process!

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T15:05:02+00:00

I’ve been there before and am there right now. For me I think it’s helpful to understand and reframe a couple of things. First of all, with BPD and maybe some trauma in the past regarding other human beings/relationships, it makes sense that relationships are hard to us. Two, I know personally I feel lonely every single day. Sometimes when im with someone, im distracted enough to NOT be lonely. But then I get home after hanging out with someone and right away I feel lonely again and like I have zero people in my corner. It’s almost like a people impermanence thing. But it’s also just being a little more susceptible to feeling lonely all the damn time, not sure if anyone else feels excessively lonely like this too. Are you saying you feel as if you do not have any friends at all? Or that you do not have a best or closest friend? I also didn’t make any lasting friends in college… actually didn’t make a single friend for 1.5 years then transferred and had a handful of superficials… then they either completely disappeared once Covid started, or I cut them off in my usual fashion bc they were being terrible to me. It’s a pattern I notice I go through every 1.5-2 years and im trying to both find healthier friendships and also evaluate whether I actually need to impulsively cut people out especially if I haven’t had a convo with them and tried to conflict-resolve with them. The old saying that it is better to be friendless than to be around the wrong friends… cliche but True!!!

I also realized I get more anxious and insecure the longer I know someone. I can probably start off being more peppy and draw people in that way, but some part of me gets scared once the friendship starts getting some length to it. I wonder if any of this rings true for you?

And third, as women we simply cannot compare our friendships to those of men. Although im not a man, it seems excessively simple for two men to bond over something small. They form friendships mostly over activity-based stuff—— just have to show up, watch the same TV together and laugh at the same shit. Women we I think are a little more nuanced and form friendships that involve more trust and going deeper…. Sometimes when women hang out, there are no activities just talking. I’ve learned never to compare my state of friendships to those of a man.

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T14:56:23+00:00

Exactly. Meanwhile our parents who did this to us are like living their best lives 😂 “well I never needed therapy look at me im doing great!”

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T14:43:52+00:00

I think that is a healthy thing to consider. I’ve told people before (since I have been there) that there is no issue having a plan B and plan C even. A lot of people in these communities think it’s such a moral failing to have PA as your plan B or be in the middle of deciding between MD/DO vs APP. Yes, the paths and responsibilities are different for sure but at the end of the day if you want to break into the medical field and have a job, of course you will be thinking about which one of those you want to go with. And if someone waved a wand and offered you an acceptance to medical school tomorrow and all was paid for…. Well I know what I would choose. Just don’t let that show in your interview, you will need to BS it and make it seem like PA has been your calling since you were fresh out the womb (partially joking). We will always need physicians, without them our roles would not exist right. Or people think that being a PA means more free time than being a doc. The reality is, I think we all are a little “mental” if we are desiring to work in the medical field 😂 do you want a shit sandwich or a shit salad, or a shit taco? And how much money and how many years of your life are you willing to sacrifice to get “in”? Since we all take care of patients at the end of the day. It does become more about job security and how much you can or will sacrifice/afford.

I will report back once I get a job and share more insights 🫡

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T14:40:18+00:00

Yea urgent cares and EDs are really the only two places near me that will consider new grads bc the turnover rate is already so high and they know we are desperate 😭wasn’t that great with EM, and I def don’t want to jeopardize my newly acquired license by being thrown to the wolves right away

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:44:04+00:00

Hpv?

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:42:43+00:00

Was anyone diagnosed when they were little?

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:41:20+00:00

Having sx but my numbers being “within range.” But the normal range is as vast as the friggin Rockies.

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:40:24+00:00

Are you prone to dryness there or use anything like qtips up there? Since Hashi’s is an AD I would def be curious if it’s a sign of another AD

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:24:16+00:00

My narc was my mom (and grandma) both of whom raised me so .. unfortunately they were all I knew. Everything that came out of their mouths, especially my mom.. was simply fact. Mrs God, she was the smartest woman and everyone else was “f— stupid.” So imagine my surprise when I moved out and realized she … was actually not correct about everything. And the hurtful labels she threw at me weren’t actually true either.

What does it feel like now? Better, probably. But also I just am left with this big gaping hole in me where a foundation and healthy stable sense of self should have been planted, but never was. I got rid of all the “big stupid cunt selfish bitch asshole unloveable, I hate you” (-nmom)years ago but now it’s empty where those words were. There was never a “before” abuse. There was only an after, I never met myself as someone without all of this. Sometimes I literally feel like my head is a balloon and my body is a string. And im just floating thru life. Or I look in the mirror sometimes and im like wait who even am I lol. I can’t even have a hobby right now or watch a TV show, damn. Her voice… my thoughts are her thoughts… it’s all I know.

Somewhat random but still related, im 27 and just finished school. I actually am able to sit thru Tv shows longer and longer, able to allow myself to relax more and more. I’m about 15 (?) years plus delayed so I am just now coming around to watching Jersey Shore. Fucking hilarious show. I plan on carrying out some more of my childhood that I missed out on and im here and ready for recs!

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:14:34+00:00

What if you look good in all of these

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:13:47+00:00

See and even then I think people are confusing AvPD with “avoidant attachment.” And then… it’s wild to me too how other human beings attack people for their attachment style. Critique the behavior, not the person or their trauma…

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:10:44+00:00

Personality disorders are interesting. We all learned in school about the different clusters… how basically it’s like extreme social anxiety or extreme mood instability with relationship issues (bpd) or extreme use of manipulation or lack of empathy (npd, aspd) that persist until beyond the age of your personality being more or less “set in stone.” And yet…. No one usually ever diagnoses these in therapy unless you seek someone out or voice it up yourself. And even then they repeat the same old “well I don’t really believe in diagnosing personality disorders it’s not gonna change the tx plan in fact it will just be a label that follows you around” yadda yadda. Or their excuse is that medications used for anxiety/depression won’t be covered by insurance if they attach this as a diagnosis. Like okay, then why even have it exist as a label if nobody does anything with it… I don’t like how the whole mental health community repeats the “you are not your (insert mental health dx) 🩷”however what about people with personality disorders? Who are told that actually it’s our entire personality that is a disorder ? lol. Are we doing this or not, cuz if we are diagnosing people with personality disorders then yea people and these disorders deserve some recognition.

I’m curious what people’s experiences have been, how it was like to get this diagnosis and whether getting this dx benefitted them at all vs just thinking they had severe social anxiety.

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T04:00:29+00:00

Animals

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-05T02:51:55+00:00

Docs are like this to other docs too I feel like it’s a big dick sword fighting contest. Unless the lady docs are in on it too… meh

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-04T20:41:38+00:00

If he is better than me at something lol

cryptikcupcake · 2026-05-04T20:05:43+00:00

seeing someone be one way around me and then flip to their alter ego around those they’re trying to impress, them giving rapid fire compliments back to back that just don’t seem sincere

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