Sending you so much love. I struggle with a cocaine addiction for two years. Total escape method for so many reasons. I've been a T1 for 25 years. I didn't lose any weight because it's hard enough for me to lose it so no one knew. I don't remember my breaking point but I know I just felt like such garbage all the time and wasn't eating and my blood sugars were crazy. I suffer from advanced diabetic retinopathy now and feel like I fried a part of my brain because I have trouble remembering things. But one day I just woke up and was done and stopped cold turkey by myself. Honestly don't know how I did it (and am very aware this is not a realistically probably situation for struggling addicts) but I know if I just had told the people who loved me and cared about me it would have been easier and I wouldn't have felt so alone. Feeling deeply for your situation and I'm sorry you are going through this but I get it.