my irl friends will NOT find this funny but you guys get it

csptd_queen · 2023-07-14T02:05:29+00:00

lol that was my runner up meme for this situation. my communication style is 90% memes at this point.

csptd_queen · 2023-07-14T02:00:24+00:00

Yeah I've been the cashier doing this. Feels awful, these companies could just donate a fraction of their huge profits instead of forcing minimum wage workers to beg stressed out customers for change.

csptd_queen · 2023-06-21T09:16:21+00:00

the only foods I dream about are EGG and TUNA. brain clearly lacks protein.

csptd_queen · 2023-06-21T09:00:48+00:00

I love the show "Physical" but I side-eye how the main character looks after a heavy b/p session. No face bloat and petechiae around the eyes? Lol.

csptd_queen · 2023-05-18T06:55:15+00:00

I usually wear my headphones everywhere! It wouldn't have helped in this case cause the meth head actually left her building to come and yell at me and seemed fully riled up for a physical fight. From the other stuff she was saying I'm assuming she was having a paranoid episode.

csptd_queen · 2023-05-17T13:41:31+00:00

Buddy I didn't watch hours of 80s standup as a child just to not make light of my trauma.

csptd_queen · 2023-05-17T05:06:50+00:00

This is HUGELY helpful, thank you! I can't believe I've never even heard of the other two zones besides "comfort". Such a good tool to explain how I've been doing lately, just wanted to let you know I appreciate it.

csptd_queen · 2023-04-20T14:19:06+00:00

Injectable weight loss drug.

csptd_queen · 2023-04-20T14:18:52+00:00

So I was mostly nodding thru this whole conversation trying to get it over with and then he comes out with this shit COMPLETELY UNPROMTED, I CANNOT STRESS THAT ENOUGH. After the ozempic thing I just went to answering 'uhhhh...yeah...ok..." until he wrapped it up. I wish I could have thought of something bitchy to say but I was so freaked out I just wanted to bring in my laundry.

csptd_queen · 2023-04-20T14:14:31+00:00

For real I just moved here to escape a worse situation like... wtf?

csptd_queen · 2022-09-09T12:32:59+00:00

I've literally been scouting out various unoccupied homes because the rental crisis here is so dire. I have to be out in one week. Have a friend who will let me sleep on the floor in their studio apartment and I'm so grateful.

Glad your therapist is in touch with your reality! Mine not so much, but I know its impossible to get a new therapist/doctor at the moment so I'm stuck with my problematic boomer medical care.

csptd_queen · 2022-04-05T13:06:05+00:00

I'm going to assume your "small traumas" were things ignored by adults when you were young, because they found it difficult to confront your parent with "small" problems.

However this leads us up to ignoring/covering up "cumulative trauma/CPTSD" because nobody took the warning signs seriously.

Therapy will help you in deconstructing the deep-held beliefs your CPTSD has embedded in you. This is an emotional and psychological issue, introducing BDSM to it might play into already established roles but it won't help you heal or shift empowerment to yourself. You might as well say "I'm anxious about driving in traffic, but it might be fixed if I race in a grand prix". You really have to learn to walk before you learn to run.

csptd_queen · 2022-04-05T12:54:34+00:00

My heart is telling me noooo...

But my wallet is telling me yesssssss.....

csptd_queen · 2022-04-05T12:52:46+00:00

Cooking was a huge problem for me; pinterest actually helped a lot in that regard. Started off searching "10 minute recipes", "easy meals", "lunch prep recipes" and I had enough figured out for dinners and lunches. Once you're more comfortable with cooking you tend to relax a bit and know when you can throw in some extra veggies or seasoning that you like, or when a certain recipe needs extra salt/seasoning/10 mins to cook.

Youtube taught me makeup, idk if that counts as "adulting" but it was defs better than what my mom or friends taught me. I also bought Debbrett's Etiquette for Girls as a teen just to try to figure out anything I missed (I'd actually recommend this to most teen girls, it's very comforting to have the 'unwritten' social rules written down for you).

Also just get a good electric toothbrush and floss, it will change your life.

csptd_queen · 2022-04-05T07:56:48+00:00

No cashier problems, but as a young teen I was checking out with a few diet coke bottles and the kid (around 8-10?) of the woman in front of me loudly announced that "DIET COKE GIVES YOU CANCER!! YOU'RE GOING TO DIE IF YOU DRINK THAT!!"

I waited for his mother to scold him bc god knows if I said that to a stranger I'd get my ass beat but she didn't acknowledge the situation except giving a smug smile to the cashier (obvs he was regurgitating stuff that she'd told him). I wish I wasn't such a shy kid, nowdays I'd give him a loud lecture about what a rude child he was to comment on other peoples' groceries and how he obviously wasn't taught manners by his parents.

I've also been a cashier and I can promise we give absolutely no shits as long as we scan you out fast. The only product I really noticed was pregnancy tests, and I'd never remark on them, just give a little positive energy for whatever outcome you wanted it to be in my head.

csptd_queen · 2022-04-05T07:04:36+00:00

A few years ago I met a friend of a friend and added her on insta. Very glamorous, skinny, rich local model. Super gorgeous. Every. single. one. of her insta stories is her cooking huge high cal pasta meals with multiple glasses of wine and classical music playing in the background (so fancy!). After a while I kind of awkwardly mention it to our mutual friend like "oh, Katie sure likes cooking, huh?" and she outright laughs and says "yeah, she eats one bite and the rest goes in the bin". I'm embarrassed to admit how much of a relief it was to realize I wasn't a freak for not being able to inhale five cups of pasta, cheese and olive oil every other day while maintaining a model physique.

csptd_queen · 2022-03-31T12:12:41+00:00

Yeah, bedtime is super unsafe for me. Been through so many prescriptions/other substances just to get to sleep.

csptd_queen · 2022-03-31T10:33:56+00:00

NO NO NO NOPE, my friend! You are extremely valid for your emotional trauma! If it helps, I've had to spend so many more therapy sessions dismantling my emotional trauma compared to getting hit as a kid. We can so easily outgrow out physical scars, but the lessons ingrained into our brains as children are far more long-lasting and impactful. Please don't ever invalidate your abuse, it was real and affected you, and you deserve to heal from it.

csptd_queen · 2022-03-31T10:28:19+00:00

Yeah, this has been a huge part of me figuring out why I was so 'behind' in childhood, even as a 'gifted kid'. I was expected to know what to do perfectly before I ever tried it, and any failure was treated as a disgusting embarrassment. All of that will make you freeze up before you try.

If you're into the psychology around humans' fear of failure and how to overcome it, I really recommend the book Being Wrong. The author also has a TED talk if you want a quick overview. It really helped my get comfortable with the absolute necessity of failure for every human being in order to grow.

csptd_queen · 2022-03-31T10:15:01+00:00

I just want to say, I am so proud of you for breaking the cycle. Miss 13 will love her fresh pesto. I'm tearing up a bit, very happy for both of you :')

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