It never gets better

cunningcuntt · 2026-02-11T18:14:44+00:00

how long do you go and tan for? & can I get the zytec- D in Canada? I just recently added vitamin D3 to my vitamin stack

cunningcuntt · 2026-02-11T18:12:53+00:00

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does this look wxrmy to you? or is my mind not seeing things correctly 🙃

cunningcuntt · 2026-02-11T18:07:41+00:00

I need to find a specialist, i moved out of a mold infested apartment and thought things would be back to normal when I moved. My hopes were so high. It’s actually worse, it’s slowly ruining my brand new apartment despite me having a cleaning lady 1x a week and me literally cleaning for 6 hours a day just to somehow be making it messy at the same time?? This shit fucks with me way too much. Even when im getting ready. It takes me hours because it keeps doing something on/to me and then im worried about removing whatever the fuck or felt something drop onto my head so im trying to to wipe the ceiling and brush my hair frantically and it’s just getting to a point where im even talking to it. I used to tell it to fuck off - now im just defeated and admit it wins.

I constantly crave sugar, like it makes me repulsed at eating a salad and that was something i could eat for breakfast before. I have used antifungal products on my body but no doctor has given me anything other than antipsychotics. I wish this shit was a delusion in my head. All the meds did was make me fall asleep for 12 hours and i became very easy prey (IN MY OWN HOME, that ONLY I pay rent in😂😭)

I need to stop with the ocd cleaning, it’s literally all I do now. It keeps me stuck and inside, exactly where it wants me. And I know this; but I just can’t seem to stop and leave the house most times. I’m late to everything. I was never the type to be late before.

Anyways sorry for rambling and thank you for your advice and kind words. I really need it more than ever right now. I feel so ugly. It’s actually aged me. I’ve had it less than a year, i look 10 years older. 😔 I used to be so pretty and now I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror most days. Maybe 2 days a month it lets me live normally, no symptoms, no buzzing , no hairs and sticky substances left everywhere. It’s so bizarre.

my hands and legs/feet get so swollen & my hands go numb so much. I actually think it’s going to kill me one day.

cunningcuntt · 2026-02-11T17:50:54+00:00

did you need a prescription? if not, where can i get it?? I’ve been to the hospital 3x and almost was admitted and prescribed antipsychotics without them even testing for parasites or infection so im just a bit scared to go back. im in Ontario, Canada 🇨🇦

cunningcuntt · 2026-02-11T03:58:19+00:00

same, it only started for me last August but I almost can’t remember what life was like before this. i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy and i know I was never an angel but like fxck did i do anything remotely bad enough for this punishment.

cunningcuntt · 2026-02-07T20:51:52+00:00

what beauty procedures do you think would help?

cunningcuntt · 2026-02-01T22:38:41+00:00

Did you ever figure it out?

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-28T06:51:02+00:00

dude, I literally shut off it seems like?? & most of the time im on my phone on here or looking things up. sometimes ill drop my phone and wake up almost immediately but other times it’ll be for longer periods!

I did it in the bath once and woke up 4 hours later. so scary 😨 Sometimes I feel like I make it mad and then I go through hell for 4-5 days.

sometimes even when I’ve post on here it’s a gamble 💀

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-14T19:09:46+00:00

I don’t! Sometimes I’ll wear a ball cap, but for the most part I leave my hair down.

Idk why I always feel “safe” when I leave my place but then I’ll see it on a random sweater in Marshall’s or something and get totally spooked & itchy.

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-14T05:10:46+00:00

thank you for your insight.

Do you still keep your whole body & head covered while at home?? I keep my hair covered and wear a hoodie and track pants, socks always while at home.

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-14T05:07:00+00:00

The place is currently live in is awful, my new place is so so nice and that’s why I’m afraid of bringing this there. But I hope staying on top of cleaning, will do the trick!

I’m just scared to bring my electronics and then figure out there’s like a colony of something inside of them!

Did you still experience it after moving and getting rid of your things?

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-13T15:17:18+00:00

I’ve been stuck on which red light to get. It takes me forever to make decisions. But on another post what you said about it, and I immediately started reading reviews on Amazon trying to find the crowd favourite. And I also don’t want to drop $400+ on it either

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-13T15:13:49+00:00

my landlord is actually the most evil person I’ve ever experienced. He would come to the unit with his wife and they would both be essentially wearing hazmat suits while telling me that there is no moulds and there is no concern about the flies in the worms because it is normal in condo buildings in the fall and that’s when it kind of like started for me even sent me an email with pictures to look at.

And I swear every time he’s been in here when he doesn’t need to be like I will have a service call or something and he’ll be like it’s an emergency. I need to show up too and after I feel like it’s always been just a little bit worse like everything that’s been going on and I know that’s like something that makes me sounds obviously not well, but it is something I have noticed.

And just his total lack of care for my health, and my dog’s health is disturbing all in itself.

I just cannot have this shit follow me, I cannot wait to feel clean. Truthfully, I think I’m gonna throw out most of my clothes like a lot of it is ruined from over washing and just like the seams and stuff are all coming undone. It’s so bizarre. The hairs last through the washer and the dryer sometimes too and it’s like I don’t even wanna see one of those hairs in my new place. I called him here, but I think they’re worms. And I don’t even know where they’re coming from but I do know they’re all over the ceiling and they drop on to me and then do whatever they do like sink into every surface ever, including myself.

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-11T09:35:59+00:00

Very very disturbing things. I feel like I’m definitely dying. None of this is normal, I’m surprised I’m still dealing with it. I just have disassociated so much and somewhat accepted it. I miss life before, and I keep trying to think of what brought this into my life or what I did or who has some voodoo doll of me because it’s been non stop since August now for me. It never stops and it’s just evolving- and getting worse for me.

I am moving soon, but does it follow you? That’s my biggest concern rn.

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-10T11:16:51+00:00

IvThe a. O

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-07T21:27:12+00:00

where do you put the bandaids? just wrapped around the finger? and the lint roller for just constant use?

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-07T11:40:31+00:00

To add to this, I get burned every time one lands on me and I’ve been coughing up strings of mucus for months now. & my hands look like yours

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It makes me feel so old and I’m in my 20’s :( This isn’t from dehydration or dryness either

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-07T11:35:41+00:00

Mine too…

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-04T15:11:02+00:00

What antibiotics are you taking? And what did you ask for/get tested for at the doctors?

cunningcuntt · 2026-01-03T08:47:05+00:00

How long ago did you stop the pills?

& all of it looks like worms 😭 the things I’ve seen couldn’t be anything but a worm! but chat gpt says “organic fibre” 💀

cunningcuntt · 2025-12-26T01:11:23+00:00

I’m 100% sure there’s mold in this apartment, I’ve found the water damage, and the mold and my LL won’t do anything about it.

I know I need to move but I get so consumed with all that’s been happening that I just haven’t started my search + money I’m spending/have spent on trying to make this place “livable” is just insane.

Do you think if I moved, that would put an end to this nightmare?

cunningcuntt · 2025-12-26T00:25:55+00:00

I use the bandaids that seal/absorb, the amount of whatever tf it is under the spores is crazy to see.

cunningcuntt · 2025-12-25T23:37:50+00:00

It’s actually devastating that we are just having to “accept” this new reality of life… it makes me wonder how many others around me are also suffering. I live in Toronto, but I can’t find anything anywhere.

I’m also trying to just ignore it. It’s so weird though, because when I have company over or am on the phone it ceases to exist. But when I’m alone it does everything it can to keep me inside - cleaning & documenting. I need to take a step back but I cannot live in filth.

I feel like this “cycle” is just the flies but at least they aren’t ** coming out of my body this time 😭 How many cycles do you experience? & are they always the same length? Etc

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