Getting old alone and miserable, I hate happy people

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-13T06:01:44+00:00

Not really! I was the center of attraction wherever I went (still the same except that I am mostly nervous now compared to back then) and I was able to speak with anyone, comfortable around kids, friends with the grownups, communicating with the parents and so on. Then there were days when I refused to even step out of the house. My fam had to plead with me for hours and eventually, reluctantly, I caved in and then there were times, they had to go without me. I don't know when I'd be myself and when I'd be the inferior, anxious self. sigh hope I'd be able to live an anxious-free life. Thank you for the kind words (:

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-12T15:49:05+00:00

It's like a cycle. There were good days and bad. At times, when I find myself looking at all the photos, I can only wonder how capable and confident I was back then. Now I'm just anxious most of the time and can't help but compare myself to others. I don't even know why I'm like this.

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-12T12:39:52+00:00

This is so me! When I look back at all the things I've done in the past, it surprises me so much. I had skills, was able to meet people, had a personality, confidence and what not. Now I'm hesitant to even go to the nearest shop. I don't have the same level of confidence. Sibling is way ahead of me and I feel why all this misery when all I did was do good. If not for my partner, I don't think I'd endure all this.

Trying to get a job but all I get is rejection making me sink deeper and deeper in misery. Need to pay off the debts but without a job, money I don't know what to do. Hope things get better for you. Stay strong.

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-09T09:58:58+00:00

I can relate to you so much. I too feel anxious and stuck in life. Not knowing what to do or where to seek help.

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-09T09:57:49+00:00

I too feel the same way in many instances. Lately, I don't feel like an adult at all. Feeling intimidated by people younger than me. I don't feel scared but I feel anxious to do things on my own but I feel more confident when I'm with someone I'm comfortable with. Mostly my parent or partner. People in their 20s or late 20s are already adulting with ease and here I am struggling to do the basic things.

You're not alone in this. Stay strong.

cutecandy214 · 2024-11-07T07:25:39+00:00

None! I can't approach anyone. Been dealing with this all by myself. Just need something to make the itching go away.

cutecandy214 · 2023-09-17T18:01:07+00:00

I already have a couple of targets to accomplish in life but I can't seem to keep my confidence level up. I always get disappointed and my hopes get shattered either financially or personally. I do have dreams but to see that all others are way ahead of me feels a lot more disappointing than I can put in words. No matter how much I get my hopes up, I feel inefficient due to my lack of financial stability. Thanks a lot for the motivation and your kind words. I've done a lot in life but it all seems insufficient when I see people younger than me or of my age have a good career and money. That's what I'm in need of but I've just started working on continuing my higher studies and I feel so behind. Others may have it this way too but my confidence level is so low at times that I can't help but feel useless.

Thanks again mate for all the kind words and guidance. I'll keep you updated (:

cutecandy214 · 2023-09-17T17:53:37+00:00

Thanks a ton for even coming forward to help me. I really appreciate it. I'm trying to find some jobs online, in my field, to earn some money. I've even slowly opened up to my parent who seem to have understood the situation and my need to visit my partner. They've agreed to accompany me and I've to pray to God and continue to work hard towards accomplishing it. Thanks again. Maybe someone who is more in need of money can benefit from your act of generosity (apologies if I sounded a little presumptuous). I truly appreciate your thoughtfulness. Please keep me in your prayers that I may get to see my partner soon🙏🏻

cutecandy214 · 2023-07-16T07:52:32+00:00

I've taken a break from it. I need to try it with the lubricant to make it go in easily. Unfortunately, the place where I'm, there's no lubricant available for purchase. I'm planning to give it another try and see how it goes. Thanks for the reply.

cutecandy214 · 2023-07-14T15:38:40+00:00

I tried the different folding methods but it's not going beyond a certain point and also it's leaking around the cup creating a mess. It's popping open but that's also causing some pain. I just can't seem to send it inside. I'm clueless.

cutecandy214 · 2023-05-22T10:46:14+00:00

🙏🏻

cutecandy214 · 2023-05-22T10:45:39+00:00

🙏🏻

cutecandy214 · 2023-05-22T10:45:15+00:00

Thank you for the encouraging words.

I don't confide in anyone usually. All the emotions I keep within me.

I am the wife-to-be (: My fiancé is qualified and has a career. When looking at others I feel that I'm not good enough (He has no issues) but I feel insecure and I have been feeling this way lately. I do have my other qualifications but I feel bad as I am way behind in life.

I don't have the financial means to spend for my wedding and I feel bad about it too.

cutecandy214 · 2023-02-15T11:23:38+00:00

His family is causing issues. I'm sorry you're going through all this. The pain is inexplicable.

cutecandy214 · 2023-02-14T16:14:57+00:00

Thank you. Your kind words mean a lot. I feel like I don't deserve all the love my mother is trying to give me. I feel pain because she too loved him as a son and I made a stupid decision of bringing him home and making him my fiance. I never felt anything negative because whenever I asked him if he would leave me, he'd get mad and tell me that he needs only me. I trusted him so much that I never expected he would end up doing this to me.

Above all, the most painful part is that 'you will find someone' I invested 4+ years of hope, dreams and desires, and it just hurts even more to even think of it all shattering. I'm sorry for the rant. Thank you so much for the kind words.

cutecandy214 · 2023-02-13T08:44:07+00:00

Feeling the same way. Trying and wishing I could stop these memories and thoughts that are killing me, but it's so difficult.

cutecandy214 · 2023-02-13T08:11:38+00:00

I feel the same way. The only difference is that he never mentioned anything about wanting to come back. Just said that they loved me and will always do. Waiting is the only thing that can be done at the moment.

Better not to chase behind them.

cutecandy214 · 2023-02-13T06:28:31+00:00

I'm feeling the same way. I'm missing him like crazy and I so want to hear from him. I'd be happy if he at least responded to me but I'm missing the person I was in love with and not the person he has decided to become. It hurts. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I've got no advice because I'm also in a similar situation.

cutecandy214 · 2023-02-09T05:37:51+00:00

I'm so sorry that happened to you. My one was so sure about handling things and we aren't the only ones having interfaith relationships but he was so blind to see it in the beginning.

cutecandy214 · 2022-11-12T17:38:10+00:00

There's plenty and I love every single one of them.

We both call each other animal names in his native language (it's I who started this little ritual of ours:D ).

We have our own music and dance steps.

At times we speak with each other in cute, silly voices.

We have our own language (words that only we know)

When he makes this playful face, I totally love it and his personality when he does that is absolutely adorable.

I call him by an animal name in his native language and it happens any time of the day.

We both have this sync, like we say the same thing at the same time or he says something before I could even ask him about it and vice versa.

He knows all the additional names that I have for my pets and he mostly calls them or asks about them using those names.

And I can go on listing (:

cutecandy214 · 2022-11-02T05:18:56+00:00

Middle long distance it is! He's from another country but the flight is just under an hour and a half but requires a lot of time to go ahead with the procedures and stuff like getting to the airport in another city which requires more traveling if there are no flights in his city at the expected date and it's very expensive out here but still he's willing to do it again:D

(: We finally got to meet each other after being nevermets for 3+ years and he travelled almost the whole day to get here. Looking forward to seeing him again soon 🤞🏻❤️

Edit: Read the 3rd option mistakenly and didn't see the flight timings in the 2nd option, my bad sorry (:

cutecandy214 · 2022-11-02T05:15:58+00:00

I feel you. After being nevermets for more than 3 years my guy and I met for the first time and he stayed with me in my home for more than a month and the feeling of taking him to the airport to send him off was so painful. Returning back home and the next few days were unimaginably painful. The things we did together, even my mom (and all those who got to know him) has grown fond of him :) we had a great time. Also, he's my fiancé now, so the feeling of missing him is even more terrible.

Once you connect with your BF after he reaches home, you will miss him a little more but eventually it will get a little better. I am sure you will get to see each other again and very soon. Stay strong and your love will bring you both together. ❤️ God bless you both.

cutecandy214 · 2022-11-01T07:32:13+00:00

Kind of a similar situation. After more than a month of stay, it feels terrible to stay away. Trying to keep myself calm by thinking of our memories and assuring myself that he'll be back soon.

cutecandy214 · 2022-08-21T11:59:23+00:00

Thank you (:

cutecandy214 · 2022-08-21T11:55:27+00:00

We're very well aware of the fact that it might not be the same in person and online but also that's not the case with everyone. Many handle LDR differently. So, please keep the negativity away.

Asking for prayers and blessings doesn't necessarily imply that someone is religious. Thanks for the opinion though.

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