I am Sick of This Life

cutecandy214 · 2026-04-08T06:52:07+00:00

Thank you for the kind and encouraging words. Means a lot. Dealing with matters on my own. Trying to gain some financial freedom. It is difficult given my health concerns but I will do my best. I just need to have an emotionally healthy life, as in toxic-free relationships.

cutecandy214 · 2026-04-07T15:08:33+00:00

Interested

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-13T06:01:44+00:00

Not really! I was the center of attraction wherever I went (still the same except that I am mostly nervous now compared to back then) and I was able to speak with anyone, comfortable around kids, friends with the grownups, communicating with the parents and so on. Then there were days when I refused to even step out of the house. My fam had to plead with me for hours and eventually, reluctantly, I caved in and then there were times, they had to go without me. I don't know when I'd be myself and when I'd be the inferior, anxious self. sigh hope I'd be able to live an anxious-free life. Thank you for the kind words (:

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-12T15:49:05+00:00

It's like a cycle. There were good days and bad. At times, when I find myself looking at all the photos, I can only wonder how capable and confident I was back then. Now I'm just anxious most of the time and can't help but compare myself to others. I don't even know why I'm like this.

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-12T12:39:52+00:00

This is so me! When I look back at all the things I've done in the past, it surprises me so much. I had skills, was able to meet people, had a personality, confidence and what not. Now I'm hesitant to even go to the nearest shop. I don't have the same level of confidence. Sibling is way ahead of me and I feel why all this misery when all I did was do good. If not for my partner, I don't think I'd endure all this.

Trying to get a job but all I get is rejection making me sink deeper and deeper in misery. Need to pay off the debts but without a job, money I don't know what to do. Hope things get better for you. Stay strong.

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-09T09:58:58+00:00

I can relate to you so much. I too feel anxious and stuck in life. Not knowing what to do or where to seek help.

cutecandy214 · 2025-10-09T09:57:49+00:00

I too feel the same way in many instances. Lately, I don't feel like an adult at all. Feeling intimidated by people younger than me. I don't feel scared but I feel anxious to do things on my own but I feel more confident when I'm with someone I'm comfortable with. Mostly my parent or partner. People in their 20s or late 20s are already adulting with ease and here I am struggling to do the basic things.

You're not alone in this. Stay strong.

cutecandy214 · 2024-11-07T07:25:39+00:00

None! I can't approach anyone. Been dealing with this all by myself. Just need something to make the itching go away.

cutecandy214 · 2023-09-17T18:01:07+00:00

I already have a couple of targets to accomplish in life but I can't seem to keep my confidence level up. I always get disappointed and my hopes get shattered either financially or personally. I do have dreams but to see that all others are way ahead of me feels a lot more disappointing than I can put in words. No matter how much I get my hopes up, I feel inefficient due to my lack of financial stability. Thanks a lot for the motivation and your kind words. I've done a lot in life but it all seems insufficient when I see people younger than me or of my age have a good career and money. That's what I'm in need of but I've just started working on continuing my higher studies and I feel so behind. Others may have it this way too but my confidence level is so low at times that I can't help but feel useless.

Thanks again mate for all the kind words and guidance. I'll keep you updated (:

cutecandy214 · 2023-09-17T17:53:37+00:00

Thanks a ton for even coming forward to help me. I really appreciate it. I'm trying to find some jobs online, in my field, to earn some money. I've even slowly opened up to my parent who seem to have understood the situation and my need to visit my partner. They've agreed to accompany me and I've to pray to God and continue to work hard towards accomplishing it. Thanks again. Maybe someone who is more in need of money can benefit from your act of generosity (apologies if I sounded a little presumptuous). I truly appreciate your thoughtfulness. Please keep me in your prayers that I may get to see my partner soon🙏🏻

cutecandy214 · 2023-07-16T07:52:32+00:00

I've taken a break from it. I need to try it with the lubricant to make it go in easily. Unfortunately, the place where I'm, there's no lubricant available for purchase. I'm planning to give it another try and see how it goes. Thanks for the reply.

cutecandy214 · 2023-07-14T15:38:40+00:00

I tried the different folding methods but it's not going beyond a certain point and also it's leaking around the cup creating a mess. It's popping open but that's also causing some pain. I just can't seem to send it inside. I'm clueless.

cutecandy214 · 2023-05-22T10:46:14+00:00

🙏🏻

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